I think I'm a bad friend.. My bestfriends.. I feel like I'm not important to them anymore.. As I used to be.. *sighs*

I can have bestfriendS but she can't? Hwahh I'm so selfishh >_<"  I think I'm insecure.. and scared.. That they'll leave me..maybe it'a because I don't really had nice/true friends as them? Kyah, I hate this~ soo much =_= totally hate it..

When I used to crush over a guy.. And I found out that my bestfriend liked him too.. I backed up and even helped them to be together..and they've become a couple..that was in my elementary time..then it happened AGAIN with another friend..she KNEW I liked this guy so much..but know what she did? She asked him out..but he rejected her because she was still with his bestfriend..yeah that happened 2 years ago.. And I forgave her..cause friendship's more important than those crushes..but..I think giving up things aren't enough? T.T

I don't like being a second choice..but I always end up being one..*sighs* I need some suggestions...please~ what should I do? Give them less importance? >_<"

That's all.. Sorry for annoying you but.. I'm reallyyy ALMOST depressed bout this whole thing.. 

Annyeong~