This is just me ranting. You can choose to ignore it ^^ Because it will be annoying, beyond anything you have ever seen.

I need help and advice. But I don't know how I'm going to get it.

Yesterday, I was crying during lessons because my friend (X) insulted me for being stupidly-smart. I don't know what got over me. I'm never so emotional but then I cried. Then my other friend was comforting me.. It was working until she told me X was talking behind my back.

I went to some of our (me and X's ) mutual friends and I know why she is upset with me. I am way too braggy, then again so is X. She said I take advantage of this girl.. although I didn't realise it for one whole year.

Okay, so I am a ish person already. Then I was told I'm manipulative. My friends tried to comfort me last night through like chats but then today.. I just avoided everyone. I kept quiet. Didn't want to see, hear or feel anyhing that wil hurt me.

When I reached class, I was cold. Like really, my heart was ice-cold for a while there and I couldn't be bothered about how people thought about me. Honestly, I have many many many flaws.

I could probably list them into point form, but I shan't. I don't know what I want from X, or what I want from the friendship. She keeps putting me down whenever I just grow a bit more confident and it affects me a lot. I can't.. 

I at writing fics, I know. I always take advantage of others, I know. But does she know that, I'm very insecure? I don't know what to do. *sighs*