Okay guys, i need your help. So, when i was in 1st year high school in the Philippines that was almost 4 years ago i have a crush and we were seatmates, the whole class knew that i have a crush in him HE ALSO KNEW IT thanks to my friends who always tease me, also MY TEACHERS knew it, they would always tease us and he'll always just SMILE and didn't say anything, we'll just talk when we have projects together, on my 2nd year high school we weren't classmates anymore but our rooms are just besides each other, i didn't talk to him neither he, but when we bumped into each other he'll smile so i'll smile back! ^^ but then i found out that me and my sister will go here to Italy so i was so sad since i'm leaving my country, sometimes in lunch time my friends would sit in the table where my crush was and they'll left a spot for me BESIDE HIM. 

The WORST THING is on the last day of my 2nd year high school, HE WAS IN MY CLASSROOM talking to my teacher, my classmates called him "my husband" so when they saw him in our class my classmates shouted "Rossy your husband is here" and what made it worser is I'm standing beside him coz i was also talking to my teacher and didn't notice that he was beside me! So i panicked! my face grew hot and my classmates said i was blushing. THAT WAS SO EMBARASSING! as usual he just smile.

My bestfriend went to me and told me "i won't let you go without nothings happening between you two" she said that made me nervous coz i don't know what on her mind that time. So he was outside my classroom, my bestfriend went to me with my other friends and pulled me outside i was wearing my doll shoes so it's very slippery and when we were in front of me they pushed me hard to him but that only made me SLIPPED AND FELL IN FRONT OF HIM i was holding his arms to balance myself but i still fell, i was so embarass and i quickly got up ON MY OWN i covered my face with my palms and run inside the classroom, it was so embarassing since there were many student outside especially HE SAW ME FELL IN FRONT OF HIM!

So today i'm in Italy i'm here for almost 2 years, we're friends in facebook but he isn't very active i chat him one time maybe a year ago, he just asked me how was i and nothing more. Everytime i saw his new uploaded photo in facebook it made me so happy,

I have these feelings for 4 YEARS and after 2 months i'm going to the Philippines for a vacation, sometimes i wonder if i'll see him, he's now going to graduate high school at April.

i want you all to give me your opinions about this, this may sound so weird.

He's also my VERY VERY first crush.

ANY OPINIONS ABOUT WHAT AM I REALLY FEELING??