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I'm such a failure as a person TT^TT I just can't trust myself... I'm insecure and think low of myself.
But that's not the point! I've been like that for the past 4 years and I learned how to live with myself. It's alright not to be pretty and forever alone or popular or, or,or...
But right now, my insecurities make me bite my nails. My English exam is right around the corner - 14th of March to be more exact, and I'm so freaking scared of it! IELTS is unlike anything I've done in school. And I can't afford a private tutor like my classmates... And I really scared. I know my English is not that good and that there's a lot I could improve and I know that the oral part will make me shake like crazy! And if I fail that last part of them exam, I fail the entire exam, no matter how good or bad I did in the other parts... so yeah... I'm screwed! TT^TT Seriously! And it's not about the 200 and something euros I paid for the exam, but about me and my future and about how I don't want to disappoint my mother who thinks the world of me! I'm afraid that she'll come to realize what a failure her daughter is...
I think there no more luck in the pockets for me....
And I feel like dying right now...............
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