Annyeong!~

These past few days, I've been thinking about things around me. oh yeah, i just finished a BIG exam around 3 months ago? which will determine my future. its called as SPM. and now I'm waiting for the result to come out on the third week of March. it's a long wait you know but worth for me. well, I never have confident on my result because I've been playing around a lot before exams. I mean, never focus on my study, study half-hearted. then, I always spent my time on Kpop. Yup, like really A LOT. I stayed awake till 2 to 3 AM just for Kpop. I knew that my doings is wrong but I still did it anyway. I knew that I should focus on my study but .....ah, I  just can sigh now. It's useless now. I hope my result won't come out bad because if it is bad,  I'll regret it, like forever? Even though I said that I'll be okay but I got a strong feeling that I'll have mental breakdown.

In my class, I known as someone who didn't have feeling. [I'm not an emo person but always happy go lucky person] I don't know how to explain but I was like, when monthly test or end year test, I got bad results but I would still chilling around. while others who got bad results would be stress or something like that. then, when came to guy things, I never show interest on them. [exception for K guys]  and I'm crushing on someone but I think Yoseob has cut off my feeling for him. kekeke. I never blame him though. I would be happy all the time without thinking any serious matter. When I got hurt [my heart] or got any problems, I never show the hurt/problems face to my friends. they probably think that I never had problems. but it's okay.

back to the point, I've been spazzing a lot with my friend, _ryuko since I got to know that she's a kpopper. She's my classmate by the way. I never thought that she's a kpopper and vice versa. but Kpop has bring us closer. We spazz almost every night when we got chance. yeah, we got chance every time. kekeke. she's nice and we like the same k-pop groups. 2PM, B2ST, B.A.P and JJ PROJECT. and our biases are different. but I'm being biased more to B2ST while her toward 2PM. After getting each of our results, I don't know whether I can spazz with her like we did now because we don't have anything in common except related to Kpop. Yeah, I start to feel sad when thinking about this. can we able to spazz like this? I never know the future. Yeah, no one knows except the God. but I hope I can in the future.

sob sob. no, I'm not crying cuz I'm not a type of easily cry over something. okay, that's all. I don't know what I babbling about. well yeah.

annyeong!~ bye-yeom.

I MISS MY HUSBAND, REALLY MISS HIM. SEOBIE, I MISS YOU. //please ignore this.kekeke//