I hate the fact that I am blamed to be selfish when in reality I am doing what my folks want me to do 

and I am tired of living like a goody two shoes with no changes or no wild things in my life. 

I am sick and tired of being told that I have no choice and no personality 

but when I act like a that I dont have anything good about me I am reminded that everyone has they positive points and When I ask them they look at me with blank faces… If according to you I do have my own positive personality TELL ME FOR GOD SAKE!!!

I hate the part that everyday I have to live pretending I am very happy with my life and I am happy being the perfect daughter they can have… and still end up being scolded the most and end up hearing that I am so selfish, even though they raised me I should be thankful to them … 

WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT ME TO DO??? YOU FEET AND JUST STAY THERE BOWING TO YOU???

I am me .. face it .. I can never be perfect… I am just a person who is in this world trying to find what I am … and thanks to you I still havent found out … what I am , what I want and all . 

People say what ever happens to you you are to be blamed that it happened to you but I will say … in my case .. IT IS ALL YOUR FAULT! THAT I AM STILL HERE AND I AM STILL TRYING TO FIND OUT WHO I AM … AND I CANNOT GROW AS AN INDIVIDUAL!!!!

I am trying to tell you with patience that let go of me … coz its time you do that … if you push me over the edge and I snap and do something immature .. dont go around calling me a selfish .. coz if that happens its still YOU to be blamed for that …