I'm only telling you guys this because I know I'll never even meet half of you, so it ok. (Except bev and Elle)

So my ex- boyfriend an I went out for like a year and a half, we were really good friends before that, and he was legit the sweetest person I have ever met. (Everyone used to make jokes about us getting married and because we were so perfect for each other)

this morning I was greeted by a text that said "can we meet up to say goodbye? We need to talk."

and I knew what was coming...

to be honest, when we first went out, he was like the guys in these fanfics- sweet and loving and kind - and I lived in this little bubble for a while thinking that was how it would stay. He was my first kiss and everything was perfect.

After a while though he stopped texting me everyday and wasn't as affectionate around me on the rare occasions wen we would meet up. I kinda saw this coming and tried to force it to the back of my mind so I could enjoy what relationship I had- which I did.

but ten when he went on holiday to Europe and didn't tell me until he was at the airport ( and I had arranged all these things I wanted to do in his last summer before university) and then didn't text or message me at all for at least 3 months, nor reply to any of my messages before going on holiday... I knewhe didn't love me anymore.

i put up with a lot of stuff that I really wanted to ask him about, but never had the courage too incase I annoyed him or started a fight. In the break up he was mature and kind. He apologised for "being a terrible boyfriend" and was gentle with my heart.

i just hope that whoever dates him in the future is gentle with his.