So, I don’t really know where to start this.

I gave this decision almost 3 months time of thinking and I still can’t word it correctly to make this as less painful as I can. I honestly wish there was a way to say this as easily as possible but alas, all I can do is be honest with you all and hope that you guys can understand and come to respect my decision even if you don't like it or agree with it.

Now, I am not sure if you guys followed me on tumblr but if you did, you would have noticed that I am done with it. I wrote my goodbye on there and I never once looked back since then. Now, what exactly does my leaving of my kpop tumblr blog entail?

It means I am finally leaving the kpop fandom.

Now, to some people, like my dear friends on tumblr and my dear friends on here, this sounds like a sudden and irrational thing but in all honesty, it took me months to understand that I would like to leave behind the kpop fandom. And for those of you who don’t know, I have been a kpop fan for almost eight years, so this isn’t an irrational decision.

Eight years, you guys.

That is a lengthy time and over that time, I realized that the love I had for kpop has been slowly dwindling down. And to show you guys how serious I am about all of this, my top three groups, Big Bang, DBSK, and 2NE1 couldn’t even tempt me to stay in the kpop fandom any longer. Now, don’t get me wrong. I still my top three bias groups but I am just done with kpop. I guess I have just been in it so long, I feel restricted and somewhat bored of it in all honesty. And that’s what it really comes down to: freedom. I want to explore other fandoms now. I want to explore other hobbies of mine. And because I was a fan of kpop, I solely restricted myself to kpop because if I dwindled my attention to something else or another fandom even for a bit, the backlash of it really made me open my eyes. It opened my eyes in the sense that I’ve been in kpop so long, I never gave other things a chance.

And that’s what I would like to do now: explore other things.

Now, the biggest reason why I waited so long to post this farewell message was because of the scandal with Block B and Stardom Ent. that erupted about a month ago. You see, I decided to post my farewell to you guys around December of last year but then the Block B/Stardom thing happened and I just felt like it wasn’t right to say goodbye when the fandom was going through such a difficult time. So, I waited till things calmed down.

And here I am now.

And no matter how much I thank each and every single one of you, for all your endless love, support, and warmth, it’ll never be enough because I truly don’t deserve you guys. You are all such beautiful and amazing human beings and I was so blessed to come to this precious little fandom, where it really is one big family. A beautiful family that I pray thrives on and becomes amazing.

I sincerely thank you from the bottom of my heart for making me who I am today as a writer who got better bit by bit thanks to you all. I cannot thank you enough for that. I cannot thank you all enough for all the wonderful love, comments, and just everything else. I really can’t thank you all enough. And even if I could, it would never be enough.

Now, this next part is the hardest part and the most selfish part of this whole decision but I ask all of you to respect it even if you don’t agree with it. Because I am leaving the kpop fandom, I would like to leave everything behind, including my fics. Which means I would like to delete my fics because I don’t want to leave anything behind because that’s the whole point of moving forward.

I don’t want to have my fics online for a couple of reasons, the main being that if I leave my fics online, they’ll always be there in the future with me when I want to move past kpop. It's like they're a constant reminder when I want to move on, you know? 

I know that might not make sense and that it sounds really selfish and that’s unfair to you wonderful people but I just want to leave everything behind in kpop. And I mean, everything.  When I was leaving tumblr, I had to say goodbye to some of the most precious people in my life, people that I considered family and best friends. So alas, I have to leave my fics by deleting them.

Another reason for deleting my fics is because I want to avoid plagiarism. I never mentioned this to you guys before but I’ve actually come across people that have plagiarized my fics. This really upset me because I spend hours writing them and people go and copy them and claim them as their own. As person who is very patient and who tries to be understanding, I never called out these people because I figured maybe they’ll delete them or something but nope, people just kept plagiarizing.

So with that said, I plan on deleting my whole blog/account, along with my fics, in exactly one week, which is also when my Spring Semester for school starts. So until then, I’ll be here if anyone wants to yell at me or rant at me or anything else since I am sure some of you might be upset at me. I humbly welcome you all to express your dissatisfaction to me about about my farewell because you guys deserves at least that much.

So again, I don’t know how to say this without making it painful but this is as honest as I can be with you all because you guys deserve at least this much. Please, please, please do not think my leaving is your guys’ fault or something because IT IS NOT.

I always knew there would come a day where I would leave kpop and eight years later, it finally came. So please smile for me, you guys. Please fight on and never give up in this beautiful fandom you guys are in, and please forgive me for being so selfish as wishing to finally freeing myself of the kpop fandom. I pray that you guys stay happy and healthy. I sincerely thank you all from the bottom of my heart. I sincerely love you all from the bottom of my heart. Farewell, my dear friends.

-SkyDragon