oh. my. ing. god. baby sandeul. i wish i could just hug you right now. i am so so so sorry. oh god. oh sandeul. i don’t even- i remember the night my grandfather passed away now. it was so terrible. i was here in america and he was so far away. i couldn’t even meet him. i know how it had felt. i had only ever met him twice because i lived so far away from him too. i was just angry at everything and i didn’t want to talk to anyone but i needed to comfort my father. my grandfather died of cancer. i will pray that your grandfather will be fine. fighting Sandeul, stay strong oppa.

i’m not even a BANA but i feel so horrible.