I can't do this anymore
I'm tired of this....
all of this....
I just don't see the point in anything anymore.
Meds don't work
yoga doesn't work
and I have even gone to 3 different places of worship to try and find the spark that is missing in me
nothing
I want to quit
I want to give up
I'm tired of fighting myself
I play the part of happy daughter, sister, best friend
but on the inside I'm drowning
I don't want to pretend anymore
I know none of you care and I doubt more that 3 people will even read this
but I just need someone to know
I just need some place to write out my pain
my exhaustion
my loosing battle
I'm hanging on with the tips of my fingers and I'm still slipping
I want to reach out and take someones hand
but I don't feel like anyone or anything is out there for me to grab
I feel nothing but sadness
I want to feel more
I want to be happy
I want that plastered smile on my face to be real
Some days are worse than others
tomorrow might be better
it might be worse
I don't know my future
but it looks very dark
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