It's been 3 years.. since I've been into a relationship..

3 years of longing.. 3 years of wanting to experience the feeling of loving and to be loved back..

Just recently, there's this guy.. He's my senior and we used to be on the same math team..

Well, we're not really on the same team but we used to be on the same room to study for every math competition..

He's really smart, kind, but I can't deny his arrogance.. He doesn't really approve of my behavior before..

Since I used to have so many ex-boyfriends, I'm kinda labeled as a player..

He sometimes acts as my dad.. He scolds me whenever I refuse to study.. He reminds me to good in my studies..

And he trusts me..

He trusts me because we're friends..

So recently, he asked me if I got a new boyfriend.. I said no..

He wasn't used of me not having any so he doubted me.. I said I've been behaving well..

Then he asked me why I haven't gotten another one yet.. I simply answered that I was busy and had no time for it..

I've already had massive problems on my studies.. Having one would only add up to my problems..

Just then, he said he'll wait..

That made me held my breath for a while..

I tried joking around and told him he's funny..

Then he said he was serious..

I don't know yet.. I've had my doubts.. I'm still hesitant to believe him..

I mean, he's so straight forward.. Is that even a confession?

I'm still unsure though.. I want to believe him but at the same time, I don't..

I want him to prove to me that he's really serious.. that he's not playing around..

But then I've been thinking lately.. What does he mean by waiting?

We're currently studying away from each other..

But we do see each other during vacations and breaks, since we only live in the same neighborhood..

By waiting, does he mean that I need to wait until the semester's over?

By waiting, does he mean that he needs to graduate first?

By waiting, does he mean that I need to finish college?

I don't know..

Is it even possible that we're dating even though we're cities apart?

I sound so desperate.. Do I even have the right to be desperate? After 3 years.. maybe.. maybe not..

I really feel like a love sick puppy right now..

If only my questions will be answered~