I don't know if you guys have noticed but . . .

a lot of my blog posts contains depressing and sad topics about my frustrations in life, right?

I have read an article about my disease, and one of the main symptoms of hypothyroidism is ... depression. And somehow, I feel that this totally fits me.

I am no longer the happy and cheerful Lei I used to be.

Even the smallest of problems bother me.

I feel so insecure.

I feel so ugly.  I'm not physically pretty, you see.

I feel so dumb. I recently received my grades for the first grading period. They're all average

I feel so talentless. I can't even write.

These things are what I feel.

I know there's a lot of reasons for me to be happy..

But I'm not happy.

I'm not contented with what I have.

I'm insecure - this is a sad and painful truth.

I hope I can be happy again. And I know I'm the only one who can help myself :)

I'll stop all my negative feelings.

I won't be insecure or sad anymore.

I'll be a happy Lei :D

No more emo blog posts. :D

-Lei