So I made this blog post to rant about how unlucky I am especially on Christmas and this Christmas is one of the worst and I don't really feel like putting this on twitter or else it'd be pretty mean if anyone I know sees this and also because of tweet limit and also people would be like judging me e_e

Firstly the part I'm most sad (and a little pissed) about is that my friends went out today for a Christmas lunch. I was supposed to go with them but my mum said we had church. I was upset but oh well. Isn't church more important? But today I woke up at 11.30pm and I called my mum and asked why we weren't going to church, and she said she was working so she had no time to bring us.

Okay, I DID mind not going out with my friends, but I doubt that I could have went out today either as I was sick. Like very sick. I had fever, sore throat, flu, blocked nose and I had muscle cramps (due to me skipping rope yesterday for 30min non stop as my internet was down ._.) and I wouldn't want to infect other people.

At around 1pm+, my friend (lets just call her 'C') called me and told be she bought an Oh! Album and she got all the 9 photocards. I was a little upset at her luck, but I couldn't blame her, right? So I felt a little jealous, but still, I was genuinely happy for her. Maybe its also because I'm not a very big sone... but idk.

Then I called C back, and she didn't answer, but C called me back afterwards and she told me that another friend, M, bought an APink album and got all 7 photocards. I felt really upset and envious as I'm a big Pink Panda, and also I bought a Chorong photocard at $28, but M could get all the APink photocards for just $28.90. I wanted to cry at that moment, but I managed to keep my feelings in check and ask C if she could get me an album too, but C told me they were all sold out.

So I felt really upset and jealous (and very pissed at myself), but I don't blame my friends. I mean I don't feel happy for them, I'm jealous, but what can I do? ;-; I can just blame my stupidity for not going out and blame my low immunity and blame myself for getting Chorong at $28.

I went on twitter afterwards, and saw C tweet that a friend got 18 pcs in a Hoot album. I whatsapped her and asked who, she told me it was friend M.

Now, friend M is a really rich person. She has tons of albums at her house and always gets every photocard, every album she wants. Whenever I go out with her, I can't help but feel really envious as she buys like everything that I ever wanted.

And now she gets the whole set of APink pcs and two sets of Hoot pcs.

I feel really jealous, I know I can only blame myself but I wanna flip the world due to this unfairness. If only I was more strong willed in going, if only I didn't get sick.

But its too late so all I can do is wallow in self pity ;;

Christmas is supposed to be a happy day but its always the saddest for me.

And till now I'm still trying to ignore the pictures of the photocards they're posting on facebook and twitter and trying to comfort myself with the fact that at least I didn't die from this sickness although I wish I could but idk ;A;