U-Kwon, Zico, Junhyung and who knows how many others...Kat's scared! TT~TT

 

They are dating.

Yep. D-a-t-i-n-g!

*sigh* It's not like they're not humans and all...and I'm somehow glad they came out...

*sigh* Right now it's time to realize the truth. Being delusional won't help me at all *listening to 'Tonight' by MBLAQ and crying at this very moment* So yeah, I think it's time for me to give up on my biggest (and foolish) dream I have:getting close to Seung Ho. It's impossible. It's just...out of my reach, no matter what I'd do. I'd lose weight, I'd learn Korean perfectly, I'd work my off just to make sure he's good and healthy. I'd do anything to help him out! I'd do...but I don't think there's even possible when Korean women are so pretty and as idols, they get to meet beautiful women everywhere they go. So yeah, maybe it's time for me burst the bubble of my rainbow colored dream-world and realize that no matter what I'd do, I won't get the chance to approach him more than as a fan.

*sigh* Yeah, you might laugh at the delusional me, but...oh well, it's not like I was born with a silver spoon in my mouth or having Luck's hand holding mine *sigh* So, I'll prepare myself for the moment MBLAQ will come out and say they're dating. I'll prepare myself for that very moment when Seung Ho will smile to a woman he'll treasure... ...and till then, I promise to you and myself that I'll stop the delusional dreams... ...

My world is bitter right now... TT~TT

And sometimes I wish I'd be a person with no imagination at all, that would take the world as it is, with good and bad things, not dreaming at all and just...be a human-machine. I wish I could be like that...but maybe, just MAYBE if Seung Ho is that moody, no one will like him...hmm, 'coz I'm moody myself and I can understand moody persons *being delusional once again*

*sigh* I hate myself! TT.TT

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painful--doubleyou #1
DON'T HATE YOURSELF KAT. YOU'RE A BEAUTIFUL PERSON.
KimAgasshi2012 #2
don't be so harsh on yourself girl...i'm just like u...really
memmma #3
AND NEVER GIVE UP. YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS FOR YOU. :-)
memmma #4
i feel you. that zico news totally killed me. but now that i know it wasnt true, im happy again. but i can only imagine what will happen when he actually is dating someone...

gosh. why am i tricking myself? im ugly, fat, caucasian and not his noona.

there went my chance.

ill just sit here with you and wait for my in real life prince charming to come and get me. im sure you have one of those too. everyone does :---)

til that day, ill be here with you girl. youre not alone with this delusional dreams. love you<3
ItsRainingkpop #5
Its not a bad thing to be delusional in my opinion, just so that it wont get out of hand, as in becoming a saseng. Everyone have a right to dream and have a fantasy, in fact im one of those people who cant stop day-dreaming. Being surrounded by beautiful people doesn't mean anything. I mean, they are surrounded by beautiful people everyday, and might even be immune and numb and even sick of it. Its the personality and the heart that would made someone like you, idol or otherwise. This may seem like an impossible dream, but nobody knows the future for sure right? :) Remember, there are celebrities out there who married normal,ordinary women/men! :) (at least there are quite a number in my country) It do breaks my heart to see some of my biases are dating, but i wish them happiness. I'm still holding on to the dream of going to korea and living and working there, and I hope you keep your dreams too <3 dont give up on these dreams/fantasies fellow fangirls! <3
bananamilk0831 #6
Omg i know how you feel
Im not wuite that close to the age of most of my biases so its i guess maybe a little weird that i like them...?
But yeah
I know TT_TT
dream_keeper88 #7
There is a difference between dreaming and fantasizing. And there is more to life than meeting or marrying your bias.
danlyy #8
I tell myself that every other week but i just can't stop the delusional me! The worst thing is when my top bias is Jaejoong and he's like 10 years older than me T_T I can't even dream when i think about that massive . Also, they are always surrounded by beautiful women like you mentioned, so my little beautiful bubble world is burst.
Still, i love the ability to dream. It's the only place when i can be by my bias' side. If i EVER get that close to it in real life, i'll never ever leave him. *getting emotional*
BennieDerHamster #9
I think you should not give up on your dreaming, you don't know what your life will take you eventually >w<
not always dreams do come true, but giving up is a failure on them for sure
if it is such a pure feeling like you said why giving up? Maybe he'll just remain your teen crush or maybe not, but I really do think you should not be so negative unnie!
b-itnaneun #10
Unnie, it's hard and very painful, I know, but the least we can do is be happy for them. And someway or the other, idols are gonna get tired of seeing pretty faces all the time. Do you see the female idols out there? They all seem to look the same. Style, makeup, faces... I'm not saying this to bash them, but it's the truth. Don't hate yourself, please. It's okay to be sad, but it's definitely not okay to hate yourself. That day will come, unnie, that you'll realize even if you're "only" a fan, seeing Seungho in person is one of the best things that's gonna happen in your life. NOW COME HERE AND ACCEPT MY HUG, I'm about to cry. *hic
DarkShadow #11
Doooooooonnnnttttttt hhhhhhaaaaaattttteeeee uuuuurrrrrssseeeelllllffffff!
YuxieWuxie #12
Basically, what I meant to say through that comment is that I'm here for you and I know how you feel, you're not alone. *hug*
YuxieWuxie #13
Awwww, I know exactly how it feels, if you want, you can talk to me about it, I've been so depressed these last couple of days because of the same reason :( It's fine to dream, I like to tell myself this, I'm delusional too, so I understand just how you feel; though, no matter how many times I'm telling myself to stop with this delusion, I can never stop. :(
MediaShadow31 #14
Don't worry. We all have those thoughts. It's painfall being born half way across the world (I'm from the UK) and knowing that I probably won't even get to see a kpop group live let alone get close to any of them... oh the things I'd do to get close to Changjo (my ultimate bias) but unfortunatly those thoughts will have to stay in my fantasy world... *sigh*
I literally am dreading the day my bias' start coming out with their relationships, it's not that I won't be happy... because I will, but that doesn't mean part of me won't be extremely sad.. :/
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