I am currently 19 years old, soon to be 20 next year.  The idea for this blog post started while I was designing a logo for a group project and thinking of writing a fanfic at the same time - therefore in need of inspiration. I go to youtube and a thought popped up in my head ' Hey, I haven't listened to DBSK as a five in such a long while' So I searched TVXQ and obviously nowadays Homin songs would come up, I listened to some, and then listened to JYJ and then there was a link for their song 'Mirotic' ... this is what started it. As I listened to this song I remembered all the fun times I've had with the friends I've made online, roleplaying, co-writing, thinking up ideas together.  During the time Mirotic came out I was already a Kpop fan for 2 years and I thought I was just alone in that, until I discovered a marvellous website called winglin... at the time only Japanese couples such as YamaKi, MatsuJunxMao and taiwanese couples such as Chunella, Arron and Hebe, Selina and Jiro were featured. I had such a great time reading the fanfics - so much that I was told to stop reading them because I read too much! And then I listened to Super Junior, not a lot though, but I thought their material was awesome. Even though I was discovering these new and wonderful things, I still felt like I was alone. No one to share my interests in... and no one in school seemed to know who I was talking about as well and nobody cared.  During that time at school it was all drama and ing... Truth be told, I was horrible but I wasnt a bully... I didn't have any outlet and the rock music seemed to make me more depressed. 

This is when Mirotic came out.

During the time It came out loads of people were doing fanfics about it, and I suddenly wanted to write my own, at first I thought I was amazingly crapy at writingm until I received my first comment, it was a happy day. After that the authors that I've been watching have been commenting on my stories, that was even more of an amazing feeling, and after that we added each other on msn, talked everyday and discussed story Ideas. Back to real time. By the time I started thinking about these things the song Mirotic had finished, and the song Stand By U was next on the list. This is where the tears started. I am so thankful to them because I was lonely and I didn't anyone to talk to that didn't involve drama and ing and being a girl of 13/14 and in the stage of feeling like no one understands me, TVXQ was there, listening to them made me happier, specially with the song Balloons, and Choosy lover. And because of them I had a common interest with other people, and it allowed me to branch out more and be myself. Although they were friends from the internet, they were invaluable, they were more like friends than the ones I had near me.  They were kind, funny, and creative. A bonus to add to that, my grades were getting higher because I was able to express myself more in writing and I was praised for being creative. Since I was being happier, I wanted to share what was making me happy to the friends I had in real life,  and they were all into it. So, not only did I gain friends all over the world, it made me closer to the ones I had in real life. And because of one band, I suddenly knew what I wanted to do in life. I want to write, not a novel but as script writer. Since, I lvoe drama so much too, I want to see what I've written come to life.  

I'm so sorry for the long post. And if you read this, thank you, It's something that I've always wanted to share.

And thank you to DBSK, TVXQ for the wonderful inspiring music. Even though they are not a five the spirit still lives on. 

Always keep the faith.