I'm very depressed right now, I'm not even in the mood to write any chapter for I Wish.

Why?

Well, there's this program in our school. Its aim is to let the students perform the different festivals celebrated by various places here in our country. My class section was assigned to perform the Flower Festival thingy.

So, yeah, we really did gave a lot of effort just to make our performance great. We also spent so much money for the props and costumes. During practices, we don't care if the weather's too hot. We still practiced. It was almost perfect.

Yesterday was the day of the most awaited Field Demo (the program I was talking about), of course we're all nervous yet excited. Because it's THE DAY we will be performing. All of the hard work and perpiration will be payed off. It will be worth all of it, I thought.

However, I was wrong.

During our performance, we did a mistake. A very noticable mistake. Almost half of us have mistaken a dance step. And that was it.

Did I mentioned that it's a competition? No? So, now you know?

I was frustated, we were all frustated. All of our efforts was wasted. We were expecting to win, because while we're practicing, everything's in place. And I am ing thinking why did we made a mistake?? We messed up. Even now, I still can't get over the fact that we lose. We ing lose. FML.

That part of our performance where we made a mistake keeps on replaying in my head, and I can't move on. I ing can't.

Many 'what if's are entering my mind. Like, what if I was fully concentrated? Maybe I had prevented one of my classmate from doing a wrong move. But no, I was also distracted and made a wrong move. What if we didn't made a mistake? Well, maybe I am now presenting you guys a new chapter of I Wish with a happy content.

Depressed? It seems that it's an understatement.

Right now, I am downhearted, stressed, down, low, gloomy, dispirited, grim, etc.

that, I'm out.