This just breaks my heart. Am I allowed to cry? 

I wish I was there to help him up, I wish I was able to wash the pain away from him, I wish I could wipe the tears that gushed out from his eyes when he was in pain, I wish I could make him feel better, I wish I could, if only I could. I don't like seeing him like this, I hate it. 

I love you Zhang Yixing, I know you're strong and you'd be able to surpass this. I trust in you. Please get better.