I may be smiling right now but I’m trying to hold it in

I’m strongly clutching my two hands
You’re being deceived when I’m saying that I’m OK
I am shedding all my tears behind your back

Your small, trembling shoulders, your small lips
I’m sorry – you collapse before me
You swallow me up hotly
and shed tears
I’m sorry – you hug me with all your strength

I let out a sigh past your shoulders,
tears rise up past your shoulders
But only I know how I look
I want to live in your memory till the end,
I want to smile in your memory
Like a fool, I just smile at you

You’re not a bad girl, You’re not a bad girl
The tears shed for me, put those tears away
She will be hurt, hurt because of me,
so I need to hold it in

Why, why, why are you crying because of me?
You should always brightly smile, why are you crying?
Forget me, brush me off and leave in peace
Don’t you believe me? I don’t want to bring you down

My heart that beats from deep inside,
the lingering attachment that’s deep inside
I just bury it as something only I know
I want to see only your smile till the end,
I want to protect your smile
Like yesterday, just smile at me

You’re not a bad girl You’re not a bad girl
In my heart, in my heart
I hide my feelings, I hide it for you so
I need to hold myself back

Only you are my master,
if you want, you can leave me
I will let you go, for you,
I will let you go

You’re not a bad girl, You’re not a bad girl
The tears shed for me, put those tears away
She will be hurt, hurt because of me,
so I need to hold it in

I may be smiling right now but I’m trying to hold it in
I’m strongly clutching my two hands
You’re being deceived when I’m saying that I’m OK
I am shedding all my tears behind your back