So, how do i start? It just kind of felt like a crapload of stuff just piled on top of one another, and than boom~ i disappeared from the aff world LOL. Okay, it isn't that dramatic, i just kind of did really bad in my mid-year exams. I got a B for biology, [which i know, you're all going to kick me, and throw stuff at me because b isn't that bad] -- but my parents went haywire. Absolutely freaking haywire. It's understandable though. After all, i am actually pretty good at biology, and i know, i know, you're all like B isn't that bad, but this is a very important subject. In Australia, one year, pretty much determines you're life. What job you can get in, what career and university would accept you [sort of thing] and that year, for me, is next year. However, biology, is a next year subject [year 12 subject], i picked it up this year, and yeah -- big mess. And since they went haywire, i just -- well, studied like a nerd. Like the biggest nerd in the world, for every freaking subject -- and since lately i've been getting my grades back up, they kind of calmed down and yyeah, i sort of can like, go on my laptop, without them checking my every three seconds. 

Then after that, i just went through some sort of studious phase? I don't know, don't ask me, and i seemed to be dilligently studying. [Let me tell you, that B was a massive wake up call] -- i know, i know, asian parents and all this stuff -- and then all this crap happened, and family started to get really important. Overseas family came over, and there was like a family party everyday, and then the worst moment was, my grandpa passed, when the overseas relatives came over to visit. They came here for like two weeks, and then my grandpa passed away -- and yeah -- i could go on, about how i got a call at like 4ish-5ish in the morning to run over because grandpa died preparing to go out [he really wanted to go out everyday for that overseas family] -- he died in the shower, never got in, just randomly fainted. So then i ran over not believing anything -- until i saw him not moving in bed. I guess it was a peaceful sort of death -- but like, me and my siblings [four of us in total] sat there since like 5 in the morning, watching every single relative arrive, watching them look at my deceased grandfather on his bed, not moving, and then watching every single family member, i have ever met, stand there and cry their hearts out in front of me. For at least until twelve o'clock, the whole house was silent [there were like 50-60 people there, yes i have a lot of relatives] and i sat there stunned. Yes, i was really close to him, but i didn't actually really, really, cry until the burial day? until when we did some rituals? until i sat down with the rest of my cousins and talked about everything -- and yeahh -- trust me, that was the worst thing ever. One by one, they would walk up the stairs, saying that we were lying [my grandpa was at least 94?], but we couldn't reply, because we knew, nevertheless they were going to burst out in tears.

And then i went through this massive buddhist phase. Which was basically school, and then go home, and do some buddhist rituals [for my grandpa] -- where we had to bow for like two hours straight. Everynight, and during that time we were vegetarian. And let me tell you, i am not a natural vegetarian, i couldn't concentrate at all, everyday, it felt like i had no energy, regardless of how early i slept, and i couldn't ever think in class. And then, after burying my grandpa, i went back to studying. And now, well now, i'm sitting here writing a rant most of you guys won't read because yes, it is probably longer than the chapter. And the worst thing is, i could never celebrate with you guys, the day i got over 100 subbers, i don't even know when, i've been on recently, like on and off during the last couple of weeks, but never long enough to update chapters. I thought it will be better, if i write this rant with my chapter -- so here it is. Let's also congratulate that i reached 120 subbers too okay?? keke -- but yeahh -- and now, i'm up to my end of year exams. So i can't update again. My end of year biology exam is next week on the friday -- and if i can -- after my year eleven exams i'll try updating my stories again. Gahh -- i'll probably link all my stories to this one chapter -- i don't want to write this whole rant thing again. But bear with me okayy? probably half of you guys don't even read this story anymore -- but yeahh -- after maybe end of november? early december? i'll be back on again. Updating like before.

Again, until then, i'm sorry