So I'm having some personal issues lately that I really just need to express so I'm going to do it hear.... Bear with me if you're reading this :)

I'm having a hard time trying to figure out what I'm going to do with my life.. I mean I can't be a kpop obessed babysitter all my life... I've got a degree that I'm not even totally sure I want to do anything with and I feel rather stuck. I've decided that I want to go to Korea and teach English. I've got a bunch of friends there and I think its the right thing to do while I get my head together.

However, I really want to talk about it with my mum, but she's adament that I can't go.... I'm ... well old enough to make these decisions on my own... I mean I can drive, drink and vote, so clearly I should be able to decide what I what to do and where I'm going to do it. Its just hard talking to my mum about it....

On top of that, my grandfather is really sick and I don't want to lose him while abroad... I'm reall close with him and my grandma and if something happens I want to be around. I'm afraid that he's going to pass on and I'm going to miss saying goodbye, especially since we just got the news that chemo isn't helping anymore.

Leading me into a lovely sob fest all night, and having to explain things to my mum because I got the news from my grandma.

But I feel better after writing this down, so because I'm all emotional and don't really think I'll be able to sleep tonight, I'm going to go write.

Thankfully I have the day off tomorrow to recover from everything.

Now I'm off to write some angst stuff and watch Rooftop Prince... I'm saving To The Beautiful You for when I'm ready to calm down... seeing Minho's pretty face always gives me sweet dreams.

Loves

Kat