yeah so this is like, my very first blog here in aff..

We all know that SJ's leader Teukie would be enlisting on the 30th of October (which is also my Dad's birthday and now I seriously don't know what to feel),and, really, I'm a hardcore elf for more than 2years and of course, it would affect me greatly. But then, normally I won't be that affected since I don't see him in personal basis. If I want to see him, I could just go and watch videos of him like I always do when Kangin, Heechul, and even Hangeng and Kibum are already missing in action. There are many videos of them together right? So I thought, "Hey, it wouldn't be that bad right?" But then, I was wrong, here are two videos I've recently seen in YT personally made for our leader.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KXmz324r1jk&feature=player_embedded - waiting for you Leeteuk (cr.Alizange Maia)

I've seen the Only U vid several times and I'm always shedding tears because of it. Darn that emotions while they're singing. And knowing for a fact that Leeteuk wrote the song makes it even more heartbreaking. Why do they have to sing that great and made millions of ELFs cry?! They're just that good. No wonder those who come to know them never left their side. Well, we, ELFs are their girlfriends right? :)

The second one is what I just watched a while ago before I decided to write down this post. They're from the ELFs from Brazil. I for a fact is not the type of person that would really watch this kind of video although it's from our co-fanclub members (yeah you could now hate me). I don't know, I'm just not that fond for this kind of thing. But then, I decided to try this one and then, BAM. It hit me, and hit me hard.

The efforts made by our sisters, and brothers (I've seen some of them in the vid) is overwhelming despite the fact that they're not really sure if Leeteuk would even see it. I'm currently crying right now, seriously. They didn't see Leeteuk everyday but then, *sigh*. I feel like a real idiot right now. You couldn't blame me to feel that way right?  I seriously feel that I'm not a true ELF with what I'm feeling about this enlistment. I'm actually telling myself "How would I react if it's Eunhyuk's turn for enlistment?" Yeah, I'm a jewel and I seriously fell for him so hard I don't know if it's healthy. Maybe that's the reason why I still don't like someone right now. I always compare every single guy to Eunhyuk.

But now, as Leeteuk's enlistment is nearing, I'm now starting to feel sad and a bit lost. Well who wouldn't? He's the leader of SJ. And also the leader of ELFs. We always try our best to do what he says and asks of us of course, to show our love and support to him and to the rest of the group and to keep them happy which is always appreciated back by their tweets or statements on different shows they're guesting at.

How can we handle 2 years without him? He's the Umma of the group meaning the light of the family. Without the light, how can you see and move going to the right direction? So I guess all we could do is to wait and take care of his 'children' while he was away. We could do it right? Of course we will, and we would give our best, as always.

I'm sorry for ranting here but I just really need to release this out of my system.

Park JungSu, soon you'll go and serve your country as the great guy you are. Please always be safe knowing that there are millions of ELFs, together with your brothers that would be waiting for your return with that dimpled smile we always love. And when you do, show us the better Leeteuk okay? We love you, you know that right?

~SARANGHAE, PARK JUNGSU

~GIDARILKE PARK JUNGSU