I gave it all, my heart and soul, to get my hands on that thing that is so hard to get. I think I didn't gave enough, I think I didn't put enough effort to make that happen. And I keep asking why. I'm healthy, I'm young. I can't seem to find that thing, wich I dunno how it looks like, or even if it "looks" at all. I can't smell it anymore.

I've always knew Im here for one thing, but I want to do more. Even thought I dunno what that thing is, I know Im meant to do it myself. I don't want to do this alone anymore, I know you're here with me, but you can't help me trough this, I want to, really I want it to happen, but it just can't.

Am I a bad person? I just want you to be safe, not that I don't need you, I need you alive, my world without you, will wither and die. This time I don't have a poem, nor a rant... nor even a cute song... I just have feelings, Im writing, seems to be the only way I can share my kindness and happyness with the world. Maybe I was born to be a Guru... O.o'!

I just want to find that thing that's deep within me, to find why am I breathing, to answer my questions. I want to see everyone smiling happyly, not a fake smile, but a pure one, full with hopes and dreams. And I swear I'll keep trying to make that happen... I know I can, know I do know... you know you helped me stand up, and you make my life possible, you make my smile pure and full of hopes and dreams, so please, help me by helping you.

I have so many dreams and hopes, Im young, that's perfectly normal, and I want everyone of you to have them too, cuz, what else could we have but our dreams and hopes, our happyness and our sadness. We came to this world with nothing, and we're leaving with so much, we only go to eternity with our dreams, happyness, hopes and sadness, with our smiles and the smiles we shared, with laugh, with joy, we leave with our most precious memories, let's make it worth it.


This is the part we're I start to appologize for all the differents topics, I was inspired, and Im trying to find that thing that will make me leave with the most precious memories of my life, and I would like you to share that with me, and the world. Make another cute smile for the sky that shines bright. We'll all smile back at you, no matter were you are. We love you. I love you.

Gily~♥