This is my first blog post in here, and its really really long ;A;

I REALLY WANT TO WRITE!!!!

and I dont want to, just because, seriously, my mind is always creating stuff, stories, but I never get to finish them maybe because I never have the courage to put them on paper, I dont know T___T

Most of the things that I imagine (they are mostly daydreams, and they flow so naturaly that they feel almost real) are based in my own experiences, mixed with my dreams and feelings at the moment, but  although I want to share them, I am so unsure, and I am not caring if it will be good or not, what I am worried is to face my real feelings, and how I wish my daydreams were real 

I may sound childish and delussional, but I just needed to say this...

Before I used to write, A LOT. I wrote many letters that I never delivered, and I still keep them. I also wrote many letetrs to myself (or as you may call it, I had many diaries xDD) but the reason I never delivered those letters is the same reason why I cant write now...

I am a crazy girl, with too much eager to live. I love life, I love youth, I love imagination, and I have too many feelings all the time and for me dancing and writing were the better ways to express my feelings. I have been surviving with just dancing, forgeting about writing, because when I dance, I express all my feelings in a very intense way, but then they wash away, but when I write, it never disappears,I can read it again and again, and everytime I read it all the feeling will come back again, so I refused to write for a very long time, and just dance all the times I needed to express myself, even if I was just dancing alone...

But after I sprained my ankle, dancing freely is not an option, the movements are not fluid anymore, the pain always come back, and the need to let my feelings out is growing by the day, and I cant find any other way to let them out, but by writing, even the frustration I feel knowing that I cant dance like I used too, needs to be expressed somewhere...

-sighs- 

I really want to write, but I dont know what I'm afraid of...

PS

I was just going to post about me wanting to write a fic and blah blah, but as I started typing, my feelings just went from my heart/mind to my fingers. Now I just wish I can find the way to materialize my feelings, that I could dance like before, that I could just write and put into words the little world I have created in my mind...

Yes, I'm crazy and I know it