I JUST WANT TO SHARE MY THOUGHTS ABOUT THE FAN MEETING OR MOSTLY MY DONGHAE FEELS. ^^

Soo, I went with my bestfriend, Kyla, and another ELF, named Marivic whom I just met yesterday at the fanmeeting which was held in Trinoma. It was announced the night before that another storm will be hitting our province but I kept my hopes up. The next morning my mom told me, "It"s raining hard and still you want to keep going?"

I just smiled at her. This can probably be a lifetime chance or can happen just once in a bluemoon so I'm willing to take any risk. Even if it's a storm, or whatever you put on my way I would struggle to go. I just kept my prayers going. I believe there are signs that I should really go. First was, it was WEDNESDAY. I have no classes during Wednesdays. Second, when I asked KYLA to come with me, who was first hesitant to go, and when I bugged her again with no further ado, agreed to come with me. (she's a Siwon bias) Third, 15 was Bulacan day so it was a holiday around Bulacan. *throws confettis*

We arrived seven hours earlier before the awaited event comes up. We met lots of ELFs. Really. And they are all very happy people. They laugh almost like every minute you look at them and there are smiles painted on their faces. It's sooooo beautiful to look at and I was very overwhelmed by the view so I was like, "WOOAAAH, SO THIS IS HOW IT FEELS TO BE WITH THE ACTUAL FANDOM." seeing thousands of ELFS, 25, 000 as what Siwon oppa tweeted so, the frenzy can only build up more and more inside me as hours passed like minutes and minutes passed out like seconds.

Then a couple of songs played while we were waiting. Sorry Sorry was played, Andante, Bonamana, Rokkugo, Mr. Simple, Super Girl, Opera, Blue Tomorrow (I can't remember all^^) and I experienced reciting the fanchants with the ELFS, like I was watching a live performance or some sort of being in a Super Show. The feeling was superb!

Then the moment of truth arrived, the crowd went cheering. They were extremely loud as if they can break the display windows of the mall. lol! Including me! ^^

We stood by the VIP entrance and tried to near the trails as much as we can. We were blocked by a guard and a bouncer. It was sooo hard to watch. TT.TT That was I guess the hardest and the most tiring part of the day. I can also feel someone nudging my sides and pushing by back, and some pulling my hair. It was a disaster but hell do I care about them! LOL! I didn't bother. I didn't feel any pain at all just to see Siwon and ofcourse my Husband Donghae. :) I tip toed as high as I can and there you goooo! I saw the two princes. ♥

My heart was jumping off of my chest that I had to hold on it carefully for it to stay in place. I got really teary eyed by one of the most beautiful sight I saw. That moment, the thing that came up on my mind is....

"SO DONGHAE REALLY EXISTS. HE'S REAL. HE'S HUMAN. I CAN SEE HIM."

I was really really happy at that moment. No words can express what I felt as a fangirl whom just met he's BIAS. Note! Donghae's the first Korean I saw and the first Korean artist I met and considering he's my bias, it really made me.. ASDFGHJKL!!!!!!!!!

He's skin is white. and when I say white, I mean WHITE! It looks soooo smooth that you can run your fingers on it all day if you wanted. His face looks like of a doll. His eyes are the prettiest pair of eyes. He's nose! Oh my gosssh! It's sooo perfect, and his lips are pinkish. His jawline also caught my attention! It's not really fish-like like everyone says. He keeps looking above that I can see how firm his jawline is and how flawless his neck was.

He's such a CUTIE in person, and MANLY and HANDSOME at the same time. He looks so YOUNG, like 18 or something. No signs of aging at all. ^^ I PROMISE! And he looks 9999999999999999999999999999999999999999+ BETTER IN PERSON.

It just made me want to see him some more. To be with him. I know it's normal for a fangirl to feel that she wanted to marry her bias but.. the urge in me, the fire in me, I don't know what to call it.. BUT ALL I WANT TO SAY IS, I REALLY LOVE LEE DONGHAE and I WANT HIM TO BE MY HUSBAND. ohhmyyygaaassssh. TT.TT

But he's soooo distant. I'm miles away and so he is. He's such a high person that the whole world has heard of him and it's impossible for him to took note of me 'cause I'm invisible. I'm just a part of a crowd. He can only call me ELF and not by my name. Basically, he can never knew someone like me with a real name and not ELF, exists. Sometimes I would think by myself, when will the time come when I would hear him say my name. But much to be true, I know it's just my wishful dreamings about him with high chances of being thrown up somewhere in space.

He has made a name for himself and I'm just starting to make mine. There is no assurance that I'll make it very far or as far as him but I promise that I will push myself further and work twice harder.

I know, I know. It's every fangirls lame and sort of childish dream. But who knows, this dream, my dream may come true one day like a fairytale??? MEETING HIM has been POSSIBLE so how come my hopeful dreamings with him can't happen in reality too right?

Let's keep dreaming ELFS and to those who might get the chance to read this. Mostly, LET'S MAKE THOSE DREAMS COME TRUE.