I know most people won't read this but ... anyway, I just want to express my true feelings.

These past few months have been very tiring, fun, exciting as well as challenging for me. School, exams, quizzes, homeworks, activities, the usual fangirl doings, new groups, more spazzing, blah-blah-blah.

It's been such a hectic period for me (-.-).

But the reason of why I'm making this blog post is because of this certain one thing that  really made me realize about this "alarming" something that has got into me these past few months, as I've said earlier.

At first it was just a tease from my little brother. He told me that I'm no longer a Shawol. His mere basis? Simple. My desktop wallpaper:

I didn't take his words that serious actually. I just told him that I'm still a ShaWol and that, I'm just idolizing another and a new idol group. Something wrong with that?

Even though he really did insist that I'm no longer a ShaWol anymore, I  didn't mind him. Anyway, he's just a kid.

But then  another "strike" was made just this afternoon after our class's very dismissal. It was one of my very close friends who apparently, was another hardcore ShaWol. I'm teasing her of being a Hottest for I saw the "I am a Hottest" words attached in her I.D. She denied it, of course, for she was not, never even once, had been a Hottest ever in her whole fangirling life, and I knew that fact since we both share our thoughts of being a fangirl also.

It was just a tease and I know she knows it too and I'm not making any violent reaction about that scenario and I'm not feeling mad at her either but ... I do admit it. My heart was suddenly crushed when she said "Look who's the EXOTIC now?" and she even added, "Are you still a loyal ShaWol?"
 

I was taken aback. That's another blow. 

But my answer is still the same.

YES. I'm a ShaWol, still a ShaWol and forever a ShaWol.
 

Even though people have been noticing that I've been such a hardcore EXO fan these past few weeks, you/they can't just say that I've already quitted being a ShaWol. No ... they couldn't. In fact to tell the truth, I am not a fan of EXO-K for I'm only into EXO-M and not because I love the whole group but mainly because of Kris and Luhan.

It's that simple. I'm still a ShaWol and staying strong. I'm still in love with the group, still spazzing about them and thirsty of more news about them. I'm still the ShaWol whom the people once knew. The only thing that changed is that, I have found myself another bias. That's it. Something wrong with that?

After thinking for some time, I have finally thought of a question that desperately needs some answering. 

Is it wrong to be a fan of other idol groups?

I'm actually confused now. Is that the true basis of your loyalty to your fandom? The thing that you can't idolize and spazz about the other groups?

Well I have my own opinion; I guess that's not really the basis for it's in the heart of a fangirl to know what fandom she is in, to be honest. And in my  condition, I'm 200% sure that deep down inside my heart, I AM STILL A PROUD SHAWOL. No one, no fandom, none of my minor biases, can ever-ever break that.

​Please help me answer the question. I still need your opinion guys.

​And to my close friend who's anonymously mentioned in this post. If you can ever have the chance of reading this, then I'm glad. (=D) I mean no offense here, 'kay? We're still friends right? RIGHT? RIGHT? :3 Oh please don't ever be mad or else I'll cry rivers of tears. (TT_____________TT)

​To those who'll luckily stumble upon this blogpost, then please let me here your comments. I'd love to have some advice.

​Thank you so much and God bless.

​--Stephanie♥

​A Proud Shawol, a Proud MVP.