I saw this picture on tumblr today on a site meant for funny posts. 

Seriously I felt the urge to cry. I have NEVER seen something this dumb before. That's just so plain stupid.

I mean, hello?? She was her sister. She has NO idea how much her message actually hurt her sister. 

I know what I am talking about. 

Let me tell you something about myself at this point. 

6 years ago, my younger sister and me were never on good relations. We would fight over trivial things and really couldn't stand to stay in the same room for more than 2 seconds without breaking into another fight. I have to say, I really didn't like her.

So, one day we had a fight again. But that day was special and I think I'll never forget that feeling and emotions I had that day. 

Before she slammed the door of her room shut she screamed something like this at me.

"I won't come out of my room until you die."

It hurt. 

It terribly hurt.

Even though we didn't like each other very much, it hurt as if somebody stabbed me with thousand knives and choked me at the same time. My heart stopped to beat and I gasped for air. I grasped my shirt above my heart and sunk to my knees not being able to believe what I just heard. I stared at the floor for a long time while tears continued to stream down my face.

Of course it hurts if somebody tells you something like that. But to hear this from your own sister; it's indescribable. 

I was crying for the rest of the day in my room and even cried myself to sleep. Not even my mother was able to cheer me up or stop me from crying.

The following week was very silent since I practically ignored her and couldn't forgive her, even though she apologized over and over again. I couldn't forgive her that easily. At night I would cry, thinking back to that day. It just hurt too much and somewhere inside me I knew that she meant it the way she said it. Maybe not that she actually wanted me to die, but the fact that she hated me. 

That idiots sister in this picture must have felt the same emotions as me that time. And just the mere thought of her dying after reading such a hateful message from her sister makes me wanna cry. Her last thoughts probably were 'She hates me. She wants me gone.' while crying behind the steering wheel. If I would have sent such a message to anybody and this person would actually die, I wouldn't be able to forgive myself. I would hate myself for saying such terrible things.  

People say things in rage they don't really mean, but it still hurts, whether they care about that person or not. 

KimCaLee

PS: To make it a happy ending; Me and my sister are on VERY GOOD relations now. Nobody would have thought that we would be something like best friends some day, but that's what we are. All thanks to K-Pop, but that's another story.

PPS: I actually cried writing that and thinking back to that day..

PPPS: I wonder whether somebody will read that, but I just felt the urge to write this down after seeing this picture.