Anyone notice anything wrong? No right? Their performance was flawlessly perfect. 

BUT. The truth is purely that our little maknae Gongchan was fighting against the pain from his kidney. Though he might have found out about his kidney before the Baby Goodnight promotions, he still persereved and showed us BANAs an outstandng performance. None of the fans even noticed how much he was suffering. Plus, do you know how hard is it to endure the pain when your kidney isn't functioning with just painkillers?!

Based on my research and knowledge, when your kidney ain't functioning well, you will experience extreme pain, to the extent that you sometimes would not be able to move. But here he is, defying all odds and now in the hospital, recovering from his kidney surgery.

Gongchan has displayed true pure dedication to his fans, to the extent that he kept mum about his personal health. Most idols will immediately exclude themselves and then go for the surgery at once. But did he do that? No. 

Channie has been fighting hard and staying strong for us BANAs all this while. He never wanted to show us the pain he was going through. Did we notice? No.

Gong Chanshik is a strong boy. He kept a smile on his face and endured the pain silently. His determination and perseverance ought to be recognised. 

Thankfully the surgery is a success. If not I don't know what I'll do. But it just pains me to see our little Channie like this in this state.

So don't expect me to not cry. 

I have to take my hat of to this 18-year-old. He managed to hide the pain and give the sweetest smile to fans. Smiling happily while doing aegyo on stage, promoting in Japan, dancing and singing on stage, recording Hello Baby without much complaint. I respect his so much.

I swear.

Do you know how much tears I’ve brought up knowing at the things you’re going through? Do you know how much I’m worrying for you right now? I don’t know what to say. Do I have to be mad at you for not telling us? Do I have to be sad and cry knowing you’ve been going through all this pain?

Oh My God.

Do you know how much tears are going out of my eyes when I knew about your condition? Do you know how much it hurts to see you smile knowing you’ve been going through all this pain all along? It hurts.. So much. 

You. Being apart of an idol, you are truly…. a remarkable person. Very. No lie. I am amazed that you managed to be this strong throughout all the pain you’ve been going through. Seemingly, it shows on how much you’ve grown. You’ve grown well.  And I’m proud that you’re showing how strong you are.

But do you know how much I want to hug you right now? I’m worrying so much that it actually hurts to the point where, I just wanna cry and pray all day long for you.

I don’t know how to help. I want to, and I’ll do everything if I have to.

Please be safe, Stay healthy and strong as you are.. and lastly, get well soon, take off that painful mask of yours, don't force a smile anymore.. Our lovely and cute maknae, Gong Chansik.

Stay strong, Gongchan. Your BANAs and hyungs will be praying for you.