I thought I've become mature.
I thought I've eliminated my selfishness and narrow-mindedness.

Never once again I swore to do the same mistake,
Never once had I imagined to fall deep.

History repeats itself, as they say.
But the more I tried to avoid it, the more I seem to be guilty.

The more I conceal my feelings,
The more I deny,
The more I lie,
The more I fall.

I've had enough, you've had enough, my mind said.
He's not worthy of your thoughts, not even once had he laid eyes on you.
Why waste time, continually denying,
When you already know the fact, you're not even his type.

There's still hope, don't give up, my heart said.
A chance is always there hovering above you, ready for your hands to grasp.
All you need is courage, and a little smile,
With hope and eagerness, you take one step at a time.

He doesn't know how my mind is filled with imaginations,
Hoping his simple gaze was meant for me.
He doesn't know how my heart breaks and cry,
Seeing him with someone, not even close to my visage.

How I wish I could easily remove this feeling,
Then things wouldn't get complicated as this.

I thought I've grown up, finally knowing my mistakes,
But here I am again, about to trip, making the same mistake again.

07-11-12

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Okay. First random blog post. I really don't know how to make poems, but I tried :P hard to make this work.

It's okay if you leave any comment, good or bad... I won't object. :) Just wanted to let this odd feeling out. :)

Thanks for sparing a moment of your time reading this. :)