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These past few days have been just amazing. I’ve wanted to write something since Thursday but I thought that it would be better to write this once the excitement and everything’s over with.

These past few days have been all about Jay Park. Park Jaebum and how he’s pretty much one of my top biases now.

Okay then, I’ll start off with one of the days that I just thought to be unbelievable.

Well, first of all, let me explain why everything happened. It’s all thanks to myx. Myx had this Jay Park Meet and Greet promo and me, being the ever-so-crazy fangirl decided to sign up as I always do for every single kpop promo that I lay my eyes on and being so crazy I asked my brother to sign up, the more the merrier right? May 2 was said to be the announcements of the winners, so I kept looking at my phone hoping that MYX would text me and my brother asked me to look at his phone, maybe HE was the one who won but I just pushed it aside and told him check for himself… and the day after, I actually regretted saying that.

So here goes that night, one of the most unbelievable nights ever…

First of all, I didn’t know the winners were already announced but it was that night that was so important to me. It was just something that I found amazing. Well, I had a dream, two dreams actually, though the other one was not Jay-related and the morning I woke up,  I wrote what had happened on my phone and here it goes (I’m typing the exact same message I wrote on my phone except errors, probably):

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I had a dream again… two dreams really which makes it all the more harder to try to remember what happened… The first dream was a lot longer than the second but I barely remember what happened. All I’m sure of is that Jaebum was there… He was kind of hanging out with my brother as if they were same age friends… and me? I was with mysisters and the rest of my family including my cousins and all of us were in this place similar to “Kainan sa Balsa” and was all too familiar. I kept telling my sister that the place seemed familiar as if I’ve been there either in a dream or in real life. What Jay and my brother did together, that was just blurry. Swimming? Fishing? Or just Talking? Maybe some talking but it’s not clear to me what they talked about. But I also remember before falling asleep again that I wanted to remember how my dream ‘bout Jay made me realize something, as if he had a purpose for coming to my dream but I don’t quite remember. I can just say that I was happy to see Jaebum looking so young and cute and hanging out with my oppa.

My second dream? It involved EXO. It was really short as if they were just pictures flashing before me… kind of short bits and pieces. I know it sounds weird but the first thing I knew. I found Kris and Lay(?) kissing. It was weird but then it chaanged to other members. I don’t remember who the members were, who kissed who but all I know is that they were all members of EXO, I was sure of it.

I really barely remember my dreams. So I write them down on my phone and try to remember words that can help be recall what happened. This time I just wrote down Jay and EXO and kuya maybe because I knew they were just simple dreams that I could easily remember and because at the time I was writing it down I was already starting to forget about the dream with Jay but I really remember saying to myself that the dream with Jay was so much more significant than EXO’s but I ain’t sure why so I’ll just leave it be and I’ll probably write it if I manage to remember later today what possibly happened in that dream that made me think it was important.

So that was almost exactly what I wrote, talking somewhat crazy saying that the dream about Jay had some sort of purpose and that I learned something. Well, the learning part I never got to understand but there was really something in that dream, something I still can’t wrap my little mind around up until now.

When I woke up, I just went on with my normal life. I decided to look at Jay’s twitter and was surprised to see his tweet around 12 hours ago was “MUHBUHAY!” and he was tweeting somewhat how he just got to the Philippines. During that time, I was completely sure I wouldn’t be able to see Jay Park again. I was completely depressed and ranting about it on my twitter. I was completely hopeless since I didn’t have my sister to help me convince my mother to let me watch his show and I sunk lower when my mom told me that my sister said she’d watch Jay Park without me. My last resort was the promo, from the time I entered, I already knew I wouldn’t win but I still hoped I would, it being my last resort to ever seeing Jay Park after that regretful night last year when I had tickets to see MTV Exit but my sister’s friends decided it’d be better to just watch Paranormal Activity 3 than wait for Jay Park to perform probably just one song.

So, there I was all depressed and I decided to look at MYX’s page and I saw that the winners have already been announced. It was crazy, I looked at it for a few seconds and realizing that my name wasn’t on the list, I just continued on with my ranting and whining… then… later that night, I regretted not having looked at the names longer.

Here goes my stupid realization of everything, At 5 o’clock in the afternoon, I was in shock when my brother was calling out my name and yelling “Sabi na sa iyo tingnan mo yung phone ko!” and well… everything sunk in, I made my brother come downstairs and I looked at his phone… “please reply before 3 PM” before 3PM? But it was already 5?!?! I kept telling my brother to reply to it! Try it! They might still accept! but I just let it pass. With a guilty feeling over me, I just continued with my business of helping my mom prepare leche flan while thinking of everything and whining to my mom how my brother should have looked at his own phone and that he told me that yesterday not today, how was I supposed to know? And how I said I really wanted to go and she said she’d allow me only if we’d win… and I also kept saying that how was it possible? They sent the message AFTER I saw that my name wasn’t on the list on the website…

So at 6 PM, I gathered up myself and decided that it’s now or never, I needed to at least try, this was a once in a lifetime chance to meet and greet Jay Park! I took my brother’s phone, sent it 5 pesos worth of load and replied to the message “Pwede pa po bang humabol?” and after a few minutes there it was, I was going crazy, I was shouting and running to my mom, “You are listed as one of the winners of the Jay Park Meet and Greet Promo!” OH MY GOSH! I was going crazy! I couldn’t help it!

I went back to the MYX website to try to get my self to believe that the text was telling the truth, and what I saw just blew my mind and got me to call myself stupid for a few minutes. There it was, number 2, my brother’s name!

That was just so stupid of me! How could I rant about everything when one stupid mistake got me all crazy, I could’ve sworn that I didn’t notice my brother’s name when I first looked at the site, that was just crazy! I couldn’t believe how stupid I was!

But all that stupid talk was enough. I was still so happy, I was going to meet Jay Park!!! I hurriedly confirmed with my mom that I was wrong about the date, sicne I told her it was Sunday when she said sure, I told her it was tomorrow and she told me to ask my dad… so I ran to him, though he was in the bathroom, I hurriedly asked him, while panting, if he’d let me go, he said if I wasn’t alone, so I told him how they said I could bring a friend, so I said I’d take my sister and he said as long as my sister does come with me and we’d know how to get there.

So I texted my sister that we won! We won! And I was surprised she didn’t reply right away and since I was in a real hurry, I called her right away and she didn’t pick up, I called her again and she picked up right away, screaming! I’m not going into details about the conversation anymore, we just cleared off that we’d go together and we’ll talk about how to get there later.

So my mother talked to Papa Nick, my uncle and confirmed that he’d take us there and my sister said she’d come home in the morning and we’d leave together, and that was it! We were ready to head off to see Jay Park! I confirmed everything to confirm with the MYX personel, miss Celine via text.

So the next things I were doing was looking up Jay Park on my laptop, listening non-stop to his songs, downloading his MVs and his albums and checking out everything to know about him. Just recently I found out about his birthday last April 25, and being a big fan, I did greet him via twitter. Basic details about him, I know, I know a lot already at first, not really a lot but I do know who he is and what he’s been through and I can honestly say I am a fan.

I did watch his comeback which just supports the idea of being a fan so much more, I knew what I was called, I was a Jaywalker, I knew that fact.

And by night, I watched Immortal Songs 2 after not watching for a while, for the sake of it and for the sake of like what I always say, seeing Taemin and Jay. From only always saying that, I knew I really was a Jaywalker, I liked Taemin, sure, but honestly I did like Jay more, which just adds to everything I’ve been saying.

So I watched it, and kept watching until the end of it. I had to watch until the end since Jay was the last to perform. His performance was superb! It was amazing and it just added to my excitement, I kept telling my self how lucky I was to be able to see him, this great performer, this amazing guy. And he actually won that day, his first win in the whole year.

That night I was in bed, thinking over everything, since I couldn’t sleep because of my excitement. It was amazing how my dream happened to actually be some sort of vision of what would happen, it was mind blowing how in my dream, Jay was talking to my brother and later that day I’d find out that my brother won Jay’s promo for me. That was crazy and the thing with Immortal Songs 2, that was also a great coincidence. That night I couldn’t stop thanking God and still couldn’t believe what had just happened and what was about to happen the next day.

The next day, the morning was just a normal one.

But from breakfast, I knew it was anything but normal, my appetite was gone, just like last night, I thought there was something wrong with me, but then I was probably just too excited.

(Jay Park took my appetite away, the night before I knew I only ate a few spoonfuls, during breakfast I just ate around two spoonfuls of fried chicken and rice, during lunch around three spoonfuls of lumpia and rice, dinner, a burger from McDo, the next day’s breakfast, around three spoonfuls of hotdog and rice, lunch, around four spoonfuls of lechon and rice.)

After breakfast, I went back to looking up Jay Park on the net and downloading his newest album, New Breed, New Breed Part 1 has got to be one of the best mini albums I have ever heard, I liked every single one of the five songs. I loved Jay Park’s music right away and I got to know his tattoos that I am just strangely attracted too. I’m not one who loves tattoos but on Jay, you just gotta love ‘em

At around 1 o’clock, my sister came home, by 3 o’clock, though my mom planned out 4 o’clock, we were ready to go and we asked if we could leave earlier and they said no prob, by 3 30, we were on our way with Papa Nick and Mama Marjie.

After a few minutes of travel, we were just leaving Julugan when my brother’s phone received a text to come to the venue before 6 o’clock, I thought for sure that we’d make it in time but my sister said that we might not, because the trip there is sure to take up at least 2 hours and that is if there’s almost no traffic… and so the trip goes on…

By the time we were near Market! Market! We knew we were doomed, the traffic was horrible and it was already around 5 o’clock. I was starting to get hopeless but still trying to cheer myself up while watching my sister get stressed out with Mama Marjie, in her own way, was trying to cheer us up with jokingly talking about not getting there on time. It didn’t help at all, honestly, I just decided to put Jay’s music on and listen to it as I clear up my mind.

According to my sister, before 6 o’clock, we already passed McKinley Hill and that got me hopeful that we’d make it, just a bit late… then, there goes the most horrible traffic ever. According to my sister it was unexpected that there’d be such horrible traffic since it was summer, so it isn’t really our faults, Mama Marjie blaims my mom and kept saying how she should’ve known. We were somewhere my sister said was pretty close to Eastwood already, she said it’s just a straight way through, but that straight way took us around an hour. That was one of the longest hours every, I was almost crying, we missed the Meet and Greet and we were about to miss the show.

At a few minutes, probably around 10 or 20, past seven, we got to eastwood and me and my sister rushed to the venue, seeing that Sabrina was just getting on the stage, we asked of Ms. Cristina, the one that texted us and no one knew where she was, we ran to Red Box, which was the meeting place she said and we knew we were probably too late, when we got back downstairs, Sabrina was almost finishing up and the MCs steps up, that was when we decided to forget about myx for a while and we hurriedly bought our albums, one album and shirt each for VIP seats and Jay’s autograph, we were in the entrance of the venue when Jay appeared and tears ran down my face as I was saying “! ! ! Ayan na siya!” I was panicking as we bought our tickets and took our seats as we watched his amazing performance of Nothin’ on you, while he was singing, I started forgetting about myx and just focusing on what was in front of us. It was cute after he finished the song, how he introduced himself “Mabuhay! Ako si Jay Park!” Sheeeep! That was adorable!

He performed as we took videos and pictures, we watched as he sang almost all the songs I know from his album.

His second song was I Got Your Back and Star, that was just beautiful, I love the songs and he was just so cool, then he had the interview, with typical questions, “How  was your stay?” “How does it feel being back in the Philippines?” and how he’d answer in his perfect English how it was his third time coming and how he enumerated each one saying that he practically comes every year, leading us to believe that he’d probably come back again next year. He was asked “What Filipino Food have you tried?” And he answered Chicken Adobo (so cute ^////^) and that that was his favorite and the MC asked if he’d try halo-halo, and he didn’t know what it was so the MC had to explain and the MC asked “What Filipino words do you know?” He said he knew six of them, Mabuhay, salamat, I don’t quite remember what else he said maybe patawad or something and lastly mahal kita which just made us scream out loud. And the MC also asked “What do you think of Filipino girls?” and he said we’re pretty and we were good dancers and singers, that was just too cute.

Afterwards, I think it was already the game, “Know your dance” where three random fans danced to Know Your Name after Jay gave his (amazing, awesome, perfect) demonstration. They were all girls, it wasn’t so interesting, it was just fine, the winner had a chance to take a pic with Jay which pretty much just made me jealous. I’m not sure of the sequence here. And I’m just writing this for fun, I’d rewrite anytime I want. I just remember somewhere in this part where the cake was presented to Jay, he was obviously happy with the fact.

So, this isn’t accurate, and it’s fine with me if it’s not, since it is still in my brain and in my brother’s laptop.. lolz~

And afterwards he sang Up & Down and while he was singing, the speakers suddenly went off but it was like he didn’t notice it and just continued on! (What a great performer!) and his next song was Know Your Name, he put on his Jacket and the song started playing and after a few seconds into the peformance, the speakers went off again, and he stopped and he started again, then it stopped again and the fans were shouting “Gwaenchana” and I loved it when he said “I think the speakers here, they don’t like me or something” and he did Beat Box and stuff and it was so cute when he got seriously got the crowd with him with “Say oh-oh” and he ended with “Say Mahal Kita” which just got us to scream at the top of oru lungs and he went backstage for a short break, when he came back, I noticed he took off his inner shirt (^/////^)… *there goes my innocence…lolz* and started again with his this time flawless performance of Know Your Name.

And lastly he performed Girlfriend, which was just so cute and some b-boying~ which was amazing before he ended the show and started the fansigning.

At the line, me and my sister went back to getting mad at myx and trying to call them to ask them about the fansign, I was getting so crazy but calmed down when I was getting closer and closer to Jay… the fansign was short, only 200 people, me being number 159, no pics and no physical contact (so much for the hug I oh so wanted) when it was near my turn, I was jealous of the fans who could talk to him and I pretty much couldn’t say anything to him. He just said “Thank you so much for coming!” and I replied with “Thank You” with a weirdly high pitched voice and ran down the stage and waited for my sister as we jumped talkin’ bout how cute and handsome Jay is upclose and how amazing he is and then we decided to call Myx again before we left and they actually picked up and we told her about how we were late and could we still meet Jay and she said she’d give us another chance! Another freakin’ chance to meet Jay Park! Tomorrow!!!!

So we said that to Mama Marjie and Papa Nick and they were pretty much saying that we might not be allowed but still we hoped, that was still freakin’ Jay Park and we could still meet him and I could still get that hug that I seriously seriously hope for. At the parking lot, I was about to scream, Yah! It’s Jay, then I realized it was a back-up and told my sister that. Ahahahaha~ that was just cute and I was just looking at my back waiting for Jay~ but we knew he wasn’t coming~ lolz

So the way home, we ate at McDo and that’s pretty much all that happened that day… the next day was yet again another exciting and amazing one.

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 I woke up to a normal post-concert like morning, still not believing that I saw Jay last night and could possibly see him again. That morning was just like yesterday morning, eating a few spoonfuls and looking up Jay on the net, and he posted this vid that he took last night, his “announcements and dumb sh!t” it was a cute little vid and a funny one at that~ that just made me long for him more, his cute and witty american-style personality, after lunch, we asked our parents about going to McKinley and unexpectedly they easily said yes as long as Papa Nick would take us, and he did, that was just so great.

So we got dressed in our Know Your Name shirts and headed off… again, this time earlier, at 3, we were on our way, and this time, Nika was with us. The trip was so much faster than the yesterday and that was simply so amazing for me, still on the same road with so much less traffic than yesterday, we got there around 4 30 or so, just somewhere before 5 and I kept going on about how nervous I was and how we should bring something for Jay, at around 5 o’clock we searched for Ms. Karen, the one that Ms. Cristian told us about and we were mesmerized when they said that we’re going in with Koreans and I was going crazy inside thinking how if the meet and greet was like what I was expecting, talking to Jay for a while and taking a picture with him, they’d make Jay speak in Hangul instead of English.

It was past six when we were asked to line up and we were at the back of the line, I kept going on about how we still didn’t have our ID’s which were later give to us. We waited there for a while, then they were going on about Jay wanting to go to the bathroom, and we were lined right in front of it. We were all eagerly awaiting Jay to come, but then, it was just the MC, that was a really funny time, I kept jumping around with camera in hand peeking to see if Jay was about to go to the bathroom but then he doesn’t and then we see him on stage rehearsing, we thought it unfair how we couldn’t watch his rehearsals since we were in line but we thought at least we have a meet and greet with him, so he finished his few songs in rehearsal and the meet and greet started, it was by batch of 10s and the organizer said that he’d MAY shake our hands only if he’d want and we were gonna take a pic with him and personal cams weren’t allowed.

I was surprised how the line moved so fast and I found out why when I entered the tent, I was in front of our line so I was the first to say Hi to Jay so quickly he probably just took a glance at me and went to the otehrs since the organizers were motioning me to go to Jay’s far right side, I was super far from Jay, then they said that the pic would be better if someone sat in front, I hurriedly went close to Jay’s feet and we took the pic, I was seriously hoping he could place his hand on my shoulder, please… but well, he didn’t, so much for the skinship I’d hoped for… and we were motioned out, so much for the meet and greet I hoped for, before we left, most of us were crowded near Jay shaking his hands, one wasn’t letting go and I kept waiting, though he wasn’t looking anymore I still grabbed his hand, for even the slightest skinship, so that was as close as a hug as I could have gotten… it was probably because of the lack of time, I still look back thinking that if we had come to the meet and greet the other day, I could’ve hugged him. But past is past and I’m happy enough that I saw him two times.

So when we got out of the tent, we were screaming and jumping “I touched his hand!!! Sheet! I touched his hand!” and we went to the VIP seats since that’s what our passes said. We sat next to the people with us on the Meet and Greet and we were in the second row! Sheep! After going to the second to the last or was it third? Or probably fourth yesterday, I was so happy but then we were asked to go to the back since we were supposed to be from MYX/MCA and that side was for Megaworld… awwww… but I still enjoyed the show. It was super similar to the one yesterday, but this time, I caught his abs on cam… lolz and again… my poor innocence (^//////^) the songs were the same, but this time during nothin’ on you, his mic had errors, and the fans started singing, awww… sweet and later shouting “Jay Park! Jay Park!” It was so awesome being part of that. So again “Ako si Jay Park” so cute~

So the questions were still the same but instead of halo-halo she said balot, which I don’t think Jay would be willing to actually eat, and again his love for Chicken Adobo, the only dish he has tasted. And this time he wasn’t asked about the Filipino words but his answer to the question about Filipinas was somehow different and for me was more scream worthy something about being so beautiful, {and great singers and dancers (not so sure if this was in the first day or second anymore…)} just about being MOST beautiful just got me screaming at the top of my lungs..

So the same songs just different clothes, yesterday’s white was today’s black and still with those ripped jeans and cool belt and in know your name “the Know your name official jacket” which was the same as last night just a somewhat dark green.

And the games, I found today’s more interesting, one girl and two boys, the two boys were interesting, the first one in a white shirt with somewhat blonde hair in a kpop hairstyle was labeled by the MC as “Kpop Star” and the other in a yellow shirt and black hair and he seriously got me thinking of Cheondoong, just less handsome got everyone’s attention with his awkwards way of talking when he was asked Are you Filipino? He answered “Quarter” which got everyone to laugh and he explained  his dad was half Korean, half Japanese and his mother was half Filipino and half Spanish, which was just so cute, and well, he won with his suddenly knew-born fanclub… lolz

And again the amazing performances, his b-boying, and the “say oh-oh” and such, it was like déjà vu but it was fine, it was still as amazing the second time around just this time we left when the fansigning started, we took his pic and I seriously saw him shake hands with one fan, getting me to scream “That isn’t allowed” quiet enough for her not to hear. I was jealous sure  but hey, the rules are on my side y’know.

So that’s how we left, we didn’t finish it, we didn’t wait for him to finish signing, we didn’t wait for his last words, we just left and ate at KFC, where we also ate fries for merienda and this time I ate snackbox, oh and before I forget he also announced near the end of the show that he’s going to Party Pilipinas tomorrow. So that time, my appetite was getting better, somehow, just still not my usual.

And so we went home with somewhat disappointed by the super fast meet and greet session but still the happiness fo seeing Jay Park twice and holding his hand once and getting his signature once and talking to him once, or almost twice if he did really glance, or say hi during the meet and greet, that just went by so fast I can’t remember much, did he look at me? Did he smile at me? Did he see me? I ain’t sure but I went home with a happy heart, so happy that I was one of the luckiest girls ever~

And this is really unrelated but when we got home, Alden Richards was in our living room, he’s a local celebrity and to me, local stars aren’t much of stars and him in person, sure he’s handsome but I was still fresh from someone else’s concert okay. He was pretty much a normal person, better looking than a usual person but as we talked to him, he’s a seriously normal guy, I mean he tried to know who Jay Park was and he seriously respects our love for Kpop, so for me, he’s a cool guy, I ain’t a big fan, but I did really like his movie, the Road, though I didn’t know he was actually the star of that. I wouldn’t complain hanging out with him for a while, he’s a fun person and pretty handsome, ahahaha~ but still~ JAY PARK!!!

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So the next day, the next morning, my appetite was getting so much better, still not my best appetite, and later at lunch, we eagerly awaited his performance at Party Pilipinas and my mother actually said he wasn’t good looking, I mean, seriously? He was handsome, maybe not as handsome as last night and the other night since he looked somewhat nervous but he was still handsome and he was still the best performer ever! Though he looked small standing next to the hosts as he nervously said he had a show at the East… uhm… the lucky chinatown.. and the host helped him somewhat finishing his sentence. He looked nervous to me, but he was fine as he talked about his album and maybe he was weirded out or surprised when they made him greet us in hangul for who knows what reasons… and well he said he’d be here ‘til Tuesday and I still don’t know why.

A while ago I was still seriously wanting to go to his last show after seeing MCA write about how he’ll have a surprise that I still don’t know of but well, past is past and it would seriously be a miracle if my mom actually allowed us to see him a third time~

So that’s pretty much all of it, that’s my story, my crazy story of meeting Jay Park in the flesh two times, holding his hand for a few split or maybe one or two seconds. It was one of the best days ever and these past few days are sure to be written in my little book of unforgettable moments in my life!

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Wahahaha~ So up to now, I still can’t get over this new fandom, I mean this fandom that just currently suddenly turned serious.

I’m a serious Jay walker now, and right this minute, I’m waiting for Jay to appear in tonight’s Bandila @ Abs-Cbn.

So, yesterday was Jay Park at Party Pilipinas, earlier today, Jay Park’s press con on MYX and right now, Bandila is on…

JAY PARK LIVE ON BANDILA

JAY PARK IKAW NA!

Kyaaaah! Wahahaha~ that was cute, so Jay with Boy Abunda. Jay was so cute, I hope someone has a copy of that on youtube tomorrow^^~ The interview is daebak! Ideal type? A girl with a nice mouth? Jay I’m known for nice lips, lolz~ and Eyes or lips? Eyes, I love your eyes too~ lolz~ no, I tend to look at eyes too. Fave tv show? The Simpsons, well sure~ Mayweather or Pacquiao? Pacquiao for sure! Woooh! Go Jay! The Philippines loves you now! It’s more fun in the Philippines because… everything’s better in the Philippines, they treat you so well, of course we do! We love you! Woooohh!!!

I just wanna add this:

BANDILA INTERVIEW WITH BOY ABUNDA

Jay-z or kanye west: JAY-Z
new york or LA: LA
biceps or triceps: BICEPS
beyonce or lady gaga: BEYONCE
Twitter or facebook: YOUTUBE lol
Blonde or Brunette: BRU...NETTE
sky dive or bungee jump: eehhh SKY DIVE
eyes or lips: EYES
plain or printed: PRINTED
summer or winter: SUMMER
Pacquiao or Mayweather: Oh PACQUIAO C'MON!
love or career: LOVE
Ideal Woman: girls with nice smile (we all know that! lol)
1st thing you do in the morning: OPEN MY EYES
favorite Tv show: Simpsons
dream duet: USHER
It's more fun in the Philippines because ___________ : everything is better in the Philippines you treat me so well
Do you have a girlfriend: NO
then he sings Billie jeans.

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I was supposed to post this last week~♥ but I was busy but well... here it is anyway~ I just wanted to share my experience~♥ and my totally awesome dream!