I just talked to my internet friend today and she told me talking/writing about the stuff I feel will sort of help "remove some of the burdens"

I don't have a personal blog... so I guess I would spamming you with my blog post so... mianhae 

Lately I've been reading a lot of angst on LJ. Usually I don't like reading stuff like this, it reminds me stuff I don't want to remember. but last night after I posted my note/letter on both fics I just had the urge to read them. I was expecting the water works coming but nothing happen I just sat there soaking in the story, reliving it in my head imagining how would it feel if I were in their position.

I actually liked it, the pain, the pang in your chest, the thought of being hurt by someone... have a gone sadistic? I guess I've grown numb again...