Ok, just a while ago, I wrote a blog post about my problems, and blah blah blah.

I just deleted it IT was full of curses. Trust me.

. Anyway . . . I would like to apologize to my readers. I make you guys wait for too long---and it's absolutely not cool. I know. It's just that, I encounter plenty of problems. Problems I try to ignore by watching videos on youtube, reading stories, watching dvd's and a lot of blah blah blah.

However, none of these seemed to work. Anyway, I just feel sad right now. Although I may laugh and smile every now and then with my friends and family, the thing is, I feel sad. And I don't write--I never write---when I'm sad... If I attempt to do so, most of my works turn crap. If I feel sad, I lose inspiration when I write. If you may notice, I wrote another blog post, saying that I am having a writer's block.

A lot of people had given me advice. Some of these advices worked . . . but only temporarily.

It's because the main cause of my lack of ideas and writer's block is the my sadness, causing my lack of inspiration.

What caused my sadness? you ask. Well . . . you see, even though I have nearly everything I need---A financially stable family, a few friends---- there is something that I am looking for. What is it? well . . . that's a secret.

I have felt this sadness a long time ago. I just chose to ignore it. Now, I would do something about it. I, would attempt to face the problems around me. Maybe, try to fix it? And as I do that, I would stop writing for a while . . .

But I would return as a better writer--I always do. I have abandoned writing once, but I came back. Now, I would once again leave the world of writing . . . But I would come back, once I find what I'm looking for.

To my readers, it's just okay with me if you get tired of waiting and unsubscribe... :)

Okay...I get the feeling that my blog post is overly dramatic? is it? ahahaha. Sorry bout that. The truth is, I hate anyone acting dramatic. And now, here I am, acting extremely dramatic. XD

goodbye....for now. :)

(p.s. anghel, may special mention ka d2. Sorry dun sa story nio ni CIta. But, as I said, I would come back as a better writer.)

-Lei