“You think that after a while you’ll be back to normal …but you never quite do. You can pretend, and to an extent maybe you will get better…but there will always be this ache, this ghosting of a sensation that makes you feel like you’re forgetting something, that you’re missing something when you’re not. You’ll be out shopping and you’ll look at things that you think they would want, stopping by a convenience store and almost grabbing that bottle of strawberry milk because you know she loves it and you love seeing her smile."

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"It's been sometime since we've talked like this properly." I said, after engaging with her for a long time while walking down the aisle of the supermart.

"Yes it has been sometime..." The conversation ended. I couldn't help but hit myself mentally, for mentioning things of the past. Right now, looking at her as she bit her lips. Those luscious lips that I crave for daily, and which was mine...

How long has it been? One month? Two month? It seems so long ago and yet I think of her everyday. I have to admit it. This pretend game, I am bad at it. I regret going off. I regret my actions of that day. If anything, I want her back. 

As I got caught in my thoughts, following her blankly, we reached the ice cream section. I remember when she excitedly rush over to the ice creams, that twinkle is her beautiful eyes as she choose one whole selection of ice cream. I smiled to myself, thinking of how cute she was.

But... she's different now.

She slowly walkes down the aisle, looking at the ice cream with a melancholic look. Does she remember? 

"Do you want one?" I asked her, and a look of surprise and quick happiness appeared on her face.

"Eh? No..." 

"Why not? I want to eat one too." I said as I grabbed one tub of chocolate chip ice cream. It was her favourite.

"I really don't want one." She said as she put the ice cream back. My heart sank instantly at the sight.

How much have you changed? I miss the old you. I can't help but think of you daily. 

"So anything you want? I can give you as a present." 

"Present? I don't think my birthday is anytime soon..." 

"Erm..." Think Wooyoung think! "Must there be a reason for presents?"

"I don't think so."

"Well that settles it. Just take your pick. I have money." I said as I flash my smile. She giggled slightly, and she showed her smile. The very smile that I see daily

"Okay then... Come with me." She said, as we exited the supermart, paying for our purchases. She dragged me along with her, to somewhere further away. I miss her touch...

As we reach a place we have never been to before, I realise we were coming to the open sea. I remember that she doesn't like the open air. Why was she bringing me here?

"Okay. I just want some company." She said as we reached the sea, settling herself down on the ledge. I followed her, feelings tears come to my eyes. She looked so happy now.... I bit my lips, trying to keep the tears in... But I couldn't. I looked away, as I felt drops of tears flowing down my face. 

I know I shouldn't hold on to the memories of us. But they are just so precious. Each moment of her cuteness. I can't bear to let her go. But I understand. After today... I should move on
 

LOL random blog post~ Instead of posting a story I decided to put this as a blog post =DDDDDDD