Not sure if this is considered mature or not, but it's something a lot of people should read

The next time you ever feel suicidal, please come to me or anyone in general that you're comfortable with.

Please don't bear the weight of it by yourself, fooling others by putting on a good face when you're not feeling like that at all.

And please don't ever feel like this life is not worth living. We're all here for a reason, and it's not to die at our own hands. Things may seem bleak and feel like nothing's going to change, but if you give it time and effort your destiny will definitely take shape.

I'm playing with fire by saying these words but suicide is never the answer. It's a cowards way out. I know these kinds of words sound harsh but you have to realize that once you're gone, you're gone. It looks like people don't care for you, when in the reality, they actually do. And when you really do leave, there will definitely be a lot of people who'll mourn your death. Guilt will plague so many peoples hearts, and others will regret not saying some things to you sooner.

I should wrap this up before I just start babbling...

My general message overall is, please, don't let the want to commit suicide overtake you. It'll affect everyone around you that you once loved, and you'll never get to live what could've been your full potential. If you ever get the feeling, then tell someone instead of keeping it deep inside.

That's all I want to say.

My main reason for writing this is because I learned today that last night, someone I've known as far back as first grade commited suicide. It breaks my heart a lot because...you just never know. I mean, he didn't show any signs of being depressed whenever I saw him, you just never know at all.

And to think that maybe three weeks ago or so, this situation could've happened to my own best friend. This kind of thing is scary, and I can't help but feel really helpless when this type of thing happens. You wish you could've done something to prevent, wish you could've said more things, but in the end you couldn't.

These also kind of explain why I don't update too frequently, school work and worrying have kept me occupied lately /nodnod.