You know what, I’m a man. And a man don’t cry over and over for same reason. More than that, I’m a strong man with God’s love. God leaded me to U-Kiss, God leaded me to Kissme, to Xanderettes, God leaded me to your love so when God leaded me out, he definitely have his own reasons that we can’t understand right now. Maybe I’m more than just an idol NHM made me. I don’t know for sure but time will tell and we must believe in ourself and God.

You already know that I love my Xanderettes sooo much and I really don’t know how to tell you guys. Beauty, you should stop to cry. I would be so painful if I see my lovely Xanderettes cry. You know that, don’t you ? Especially because of me.

I know my Xanderettes will never let me down or make me feel upset. I know my Xanderettes are very polite and gentle. My Xanderettes are ladies and although I’m not a gentlement, just a man with dorky personality but it would be my pleasure to be loved by you. And I would very happy if you guys can stop hating people. Hating someone like letting someone live in your head for free. You should asking yourself the question “Do they worth?”. Answer it by yourself and you can find what should you do.

We can’t change what happened but we can create a better future full of Happy and Bright (like KiBummie named his company) together. Life is too short to be upset and sad.

I would prefer you not to see or look at them if it hurt you or make you feel angry. I’m angry too, you know. I’m the one who being thrown out and being hurted directly from the situation. I didn’t say that we must move on, just move on or something like that. Me too, until now still can’t not believe that once day I will stand behind the line, become a viewer and then watch other people replace my position on the stage, beside my brothers, touch them and whisper with each other without me. But it just happen. I only need to know that your heart never change, that is enough for me.

I know my Xanderettes will hurt forever because time doesn’t heal anything but time will teach us how to live with pain. Pain will make us stronger, pain will make us more mature. But don’t waste your precious tears for some people that doesn’t worth. They are adults but they don’t know how to behave, they keep hurting us but we don’t need to do the same. An intellectual person has his/her own way to speak up their thoughts or take revenge. Don’t keep crying. Be strong and be fabulous for yourself, for me.

BREAKS MY HEART ;~;