Description

Since people are confessing here. I figured I should be taking the chance too. I just have a lot of things to say to this particular person, who has been on my mind since the day I confessed to her. It’s only been a few months knowing her but she left a great impact on me.

I think we all have that one person who came into our life, not knowing the impact that they will leave until they left us. The footprints of hers seem to have vanished and now she’s just a person who lives in my mind. (It's okay! I've accepted it)

I remember thinking about her throughout the day, until I came to dream about her at night. Whenever I come across cute reels, I would send to her just hoping that it would make her day. Rather, it made mine when she would tell me she appreciates all of that. Her little reactions made me happy, maybe that's why I like spending time with her? I also like the way she voices her thoughts and made sure that her loved ones are cared for. Before I get side tracked.. I just wanna say that she influenced me in many ways and taught me a lot as well. 

Moreover, she reminds me of a quote that I came across, it says ‘People who like animations, have a childlike innocence’. In her case, it’s Studio Ghibli and Sanrio? She is innocent but she is not naive. She can call herself dumb but she is willing to learn. But at one point, it made sense to why she would watch it. It seems like she really wanted an escape from reality, but at the same time she’s does not want to strain too far away from it. She never voiced out her worries, but I could almost feel her frustrations and lethargy behind her happy facades.

There's another beautiful memory about her. I remember how she told me that people have buds which will eventually grow out into flowers in ourselves. Was it chrysanthemum? I couldn’t relate to it then, and even said that I would only have vines growing in me lol. But I think I can understand a little now. As there are different types of flowers, with vast meanings. The flowers also need extra care when they grow. So perhaps it’s a lesson that.. something beautiful in us will eventually grow, and you just have to trust the process of it. You should never doubt the process, because it will grow beautifully, if we take a good care of it. The flowers could represent kindness, patience, empathy and so much more. I'll look forward to what will I grow, in the future.

Nonetheless, a person who would say that, shouldn’t be a bad person, after all? Anyone could have toxic traits with how the world has become. But we shouldn't press ourselves and put the blame on us forever. I trust that you’re warm and kind too, deep down. Even though there are times you’ll make mistakes or lose yourself in some questionable behaviours. But what's a human without those?

Dear B, 

It seems like you’re facing some difficulties in life right now, and I hope you’re reaching out to people that you feel comfortable with.

Please seek for help if you’re in your extreme highs or lows. It could be as simple as spending more quality time with your mother too. Sometimes, I do feel sorry that you’re having to deal with everything including your studies, work and personal life. But that is life!

You definitely deserve good friends and vibes around you. People who will learn the ways to love you. I’m sure you’re smart enough to identify them, slowly but surely. Like I said, you’re innocent but not naive. After all, life’s about learning and experiencing right? Maybe, just maybe, I could make you stay, in another universe.

You've been a great friend, I love you.

Sincerely,

Anon.

Foreword