I made Ophelia to submit to someone else’s applyfic, which was abandoned in the review process. I tried to look for another story, but I realised due to my personal connection to her combined with the subject matter, I didn’t actually feel comfortable with someone else writing her. It was one of the things that led me to brainstorm this story. This is why her app is finished. I did have to make some changes to her to fit the story's age and timeline.

Content Warnings
I want to give clear warnings for Ophelia's app. It features fairly detailed descriptions of what it can be like to experience ocd including dark intrusive thoughts, and suicidal ideation. Harm/violent-related things in general, and a lot of negative self-talk. I really did try to avoid making the app too depressing  But I very much wrote from my own experience with ocd, and I didn’t want to censor it to make it more palatable.

Please don't read it if it could negatively impact you. But I want to be clear that I intend to write from Ophelia’s POV sometimes which means I will describe her intrusive thoughts in the story. There will always be content warnings for specific chapters but it’s something to keep in mind.

There is also a fair bit of religious trauma with Christianity, connected to her uality, dealing with both external and internal homophobia. And in general hurtful decisions made by her parents. And though I haven’t dealt with it as extreme as Ophelia has I have dealt with a lot of homophobia and have grown up in a Christian household (and am still kind of Christian) so it is inspired by my own feelings. There are some similarities between Ophelia and me because ocd tends to feed on fears and desires, as well as personality.  I wanted to write from my own experience with it. But there are definitely aspects where she is very different to me so she's not a self-insert lol..