i hate the fact that i have love you so much i left nothing to myself.

i hate myself for being too delusional about the possibility of you falling for me,
when clearly at any given time, you will not. you willl never. you won't.

why can't we?
what is it about me that you can't choose?

and why i have these questions when i can't even love myself a hundred percent.
i can't even choose myself.
i alwasy compare.
i always asks myself why can't i be like her?

i guess it should start from me.
yes.
i should start loving meself so that can somebody love me too,
more than the love i can provide myself.

i guess this isn't you after all.
i guess this is all about me after all.

i guess...