I need a recommendation of a site where I can just rant when I get some random thoughts *not twitter pls*

What I wanted to talk about is 

my grandma passed away a few days ago and it's still hard to get used to the thought about her not being here anymore.

She is the woman who babysit me while my mom was at work, she cooked for me, she taught me how to do so many stuff, she was so excited about showing me different skills and finding out what I was good at and had an interest in so she could support and help me in it, she was the woman who would look at me after a few days of dieting and tell me that I was perfect and needed to eat more because she could see my ribs under my skin. 

She got hit by a car but she was a fighter and recovered, however, this triggered her progressing dementia that started making her forget more and more and more. Then my grandpa passed away and she couldn't take it - she stopped going out, stopped smiling and got worse and worse every day,

During the past 3 years she was on a bed, unable to get up and barely managing to say anything that we'd understand. She was living in her own world. To her my mom - her daughter was "that woman" and I was  "I don't know". Nevertheless, we were always so happy when she would understand us and reply. Her - smiling was the most precious thing one could see. She was so fragile and innocent. 

But she got wounds from lying down, her skin got so thin that she would bleed if you press on her skin a bit harder and she didn't eat well. It was a torture to feed her because she would sometimes spit her food out. 

However, she was so precious and so fragile. I feel so sorry for her and I miss her so much. I wish she was happy during the last years of her life and that she didn't have to live like that - lonely and unable to do what she wanted or even say what she meant. I feel so sorry for her.

I was at home this summer, I got to spend time with her. I thought that she had at least a year or two more. But then I came back to Korea (to study) and just a week after that she passed away. Home is so far away...even if I went with the first available flight I wouldn't be there on time...so I couldn't even say a last goodbye to her.

People keep on telling me "I'm sorry for your loss, I'm sorry for your loss" I don't want to hear that...I want to hear the word they said about her when she was still alive "I remember working with her, she was an amazing person" "She cooked delicious food" "Such a kind woman" "She made a dress for me, I still have it" "I miss her, I should visit someday soon" I want to hear those words about her. Well even if those were just words that people said to keep the dialog running. 

People usually stopped me and my mom asking how my grandma was. And some will still stop my mom to ask... she would have to tell them that she passed away....

I wanted to be strong for my mom. I call her and I talk about random stuff, I try to take her mind off of things...then I see the pictures of my grandma and I start crying alone.

I want to believe she went to a better place. I want to believe that she's not hurting anymore and that she met my grandpa there, that she can now tell him all the stories she wishes to, without being stopped by pain or illness or anything that could make her suffer ever again. I will believe in this.... There should be a better place after life, right?