state of unknown

hey guys, as you might know, i haven't been active in a while. everyone of you has been so, so supportive in my journey. i've had a lot of moments when i didn't feel good enough to continue writing but time and time again, you've all proven me wrong.

 

i've had a small audience maybe the entire time i've started writing? that's never really bothered me. my therapist once asked me: if my stories were books, and 400 of those people read my book, was that a small amount?

 

absolutely not. i feel like i'm always due for criticism but my readers are probably the nicest people i've ever had the pleasure of writing for. thank you for being so kind and letting me explore whatever the hell i wanted to explore. 

 

this is me telling you guys that after 7-8 years of fanfic, i'm leaving this website. i hope one day i'm able to find it in me to come back and finish my WIPs. i've started to realize that fanfic hasn't scratched that part in me anymore. i want writing to be something that isn't touched by my anxiety which is the basis of why i began writing in the first place.

 

i always try to let myself be flexible. i wanted to be a safe space for those of you who struggled with mental health and being represented healthily without romantization. that's why i never pushed for comments. i know what anxiety feels like. but i guess that's the thing about being considerate, writing to an audience of ghosts feels uncertain.

 

like i'm just archiving my time on here haha. i always ask myself: am i doing the right thing? am i impacting anyone's life? do i continue to write for a dwindling audience?

 

maybe i'm just being completely self centered right now but i consider you guys my safe place as well so i wanted to be truthful about my struggles in writing and being burnt out from life.

 

thank you for supporting me! thank you for the paragraphs on each chapter of my stories! i always enjoyed reading them. they made me feel seen which was all i ever wanted. fortunately, im not quitting writing in general. i'm working on a book atm. knowing that, it's not fair to not close this chapter of my life.

 

bye guys! i wish you happiness in your future endeavors<33

 

vee

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TheKnees #1
Oh God I wish this didn't make me feel terribly selfish and I wish you didn't have to go but I think it's part of your personal growth and I've been gone for a while so I apologize if I didn't show myself around much these months, you know being an adult isn't particularly easy and we all face it in different ways. That's why I always loved your stories too, they were real yet at the same time an escape for me and for that I will forever be grateful to you.

There's nothing more for me to say than Thank You again and make sure to come back and tell us about that book of yours when it's done cooking! Would love to check it out.

<3
Ekale_erie #2
I really loved your book Ephemere and I wanna tell you that you impacted my life. I'm certain there are many more people out there who find solace in your stories. Unfortunately I couldn't read many other books by you coz of school and continuous exams from the last two years but I really hope that I could read them. Regardless, I wanna thank you for your efforts and the amazing books you have given us. All the best for your new book you're working upon. May you achieve everything you want!
Hope to see you back here one day...
predilection #3
It's a start for you out there in the real world as a writer to which I'm happy and proud of you for taking that big step! I've always love your writing ever since I read Ephemer! And I'm looking forward for more of The Baby Trap but hey it's fine! You do what's more important! I'm happy to have ever read your writing at all. It's good. If you have the chance do you promote your book here because I would love to read it! (At least know about it since yeah I may not be able to buy it from my country sadly)

Anyways! Good luck to you too for your future endeavors! I wish you happiness and all the good things in the world! <3
PuffTedEBear #4
Please take care! I understand that it is very difficult to find something in this world that will bring you happiness but please keep looking, it is out there. Don't give up!
Thank you for sharing so much of yourself for these past years. We all appreciate it. Bless you ❤❤❤❤
Baekhyunsoul #5
7-8 years anywhere is a commitment and thank you for sharing your talent here. Your writing and works are some of my favorites on this site. I will be saddened to see you go, but your works are a good legacy. They truly do accomplish, I feel, the presentation of mental health in a quality framed story. Your baekhyun stories are such a favorite of mine personally. I wish you all the best in life and writing. Please do come back and share when you publish so that we can continue to support and read your wonderful writing 💕💕
bbbh04 #6
Omg I’m really sad but I really and singer wish you well and hope you well and I enjoyed many of your stories I do apologize on being a silent read sometimes but I always did enjoy your stories! I hope that one day you’ll find your way back to your passion, which is why writing I assume. And you stories were amazing I read some of them and will reread them again!! Again I sincerely wish you well <33333!!!!
baeknhyu #7
OMG IM SO SAD BUT WHATEVER MAKES YOU HAPPY🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲 I HOPE YOU COME BACK AND TO READ YOUR PUBLISHED BOOK!
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