A LOOK INTO 김아야'S MOMENTS. (open to collabs)
TW: VERY BRIEFLY AN UNHEALTHY RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD, RELIGIOUS MANIPULATION, NON-TRADITIONAL SELF-HARM (CONTEXT: BURNING HOT SHOWERS, SCRUBBING AT SKIN FOR HOURS), DIVORCE, SLIGHT VOMIT MENTION (CONTEXT: EATING SOMETHING THAT MADE HER FEEL SICK.)
"mal, it's time to wake up. what would the Lord say about you sleeping in?" "He'd be on my side" an affectionate nickname used by her mama and papa, that started since before she could even remember. though her parents did not shy away from how proud they were of her "beautiful name", they always seemed to reserve using it for moments of extreme pride or moments of extreme disappointment. most of the time, mal is the name they use for her and the contact name in which she is saved under.
NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS.
blueberry cheesecake. if there was one thing in the world that aya could choose to eat forever, it would be blueberry cheesecake. she hadn't even tried a blueberry until she was fourteen, but one day she had snuck a bite of analyn's traybake of the day and she had fallen victim to the dessert for the rest of the forseeable future. analyn jokes that she should tattoo a little blueberry cheesecake on her, because she truly is obsessed with it.
her frog hat. probably her favourite thing she's ever knitted, and she wears it more often than not. it doesn't always match her outfit, but it's a must-have accessory.
rom-coms. it's no secret that malaya is a hopeless romantic, so it comes as a surprise to nobody that she adores the ty hallmark movies where boy meets girl, love ensues. her favourite movie is definitely love, rosie.
art museums. when malaya has free time, going to the museum is one of her favourite things to do. though she doesn't possess the deep analysis of some other visitors, she likes pretty pictures and nobody has to know that she thought the mona lisa was the artist, not the art.
friends. since malaya doesn't really enjoy violence or gore, there are limitted tv shows that she enjoys. friends is one of them. it's a simple thing to watch, and it remains funny to her even after rewatching it for the fifth time.
tea. malaya is not a coffee drinker, and hot chocolate is far too sweet for her -- so she opts with the many flavours of tea. she tries new ones all the time but her favourite is green tea. get well soon cafe makes a mean cup of it.
the earth. probably self-explanatory, but malaya has always been drawn to the beauty of the world, and has always been keen to improve the condition of it. as a little girl, she was always signing petitions and donating a little of her pocket money to funds dedicated to saving the planet. she takes part in a lot of parades and rallies to do with global warming, and is generally a big activist.
storms. perhaps it has something to do with being born on a stormy day, but malaya has always enjoyed storms. cleanup duty certainly wasn't fun but the combination of crackling thunder, striking lightning and downpour of rain -- it's all kind of beautiful to her.
giving gifts. it's understandable since malaya's love language is gifts and physical touch. whenever she can afford to spend a little money on her friends, she takes the opportunity without a second thought. little things like keychains, magnets or just anything that she sees and thinks 'oh they'll like that!'. you can imagine how crazy she goes during christmastime.
physical touch. depending on the limits and comfort levels of her friends, she'll always seek some contact from them. it ranges from crossed pinkies, linked arms, or just straight up clinging to someone. it just makes her feel better and she can always count on some good old affection to cheer her up.
meat. when malaya turned twelve, she decided she wanted to be a vegetarian. since then, she hasn't willingly eaten meat -- although an old (and now, ex) friend once tricked her and had her eat meat. for the rest of the day, malaya could not keep any food down.
her handwriting. ever the perfectionist, malaya hates her own handwriting despite the relative neatness of it. she doesn't scribbe, and her words are easy to read -- but she still hates the way it looks. because of this, she opts for digital notes instead of written ones. she's looking to buy an ipad for taking these notes, but for now she continues to bother the librarian by printing on the computers there.
alcohol. though malaya hasn't tasted alcohol, she has decided to be temperant. roman catholics don't have any particular rules about alcohol, but still malaya doesn't drink. the idea of not being in control is enough to make her abstain.
pettiness. as someone who is relatively good natured and non-confrontational, she hates when she meets people who are intent on revenge and grudges. the lord taught malaya to always forgive people for the greater good, and she doesn't understand why others don't want to achieve the same.
bubble tea. as ironic as it is, malaya really hates bubble tea. she doesn't like sweet things, but she supposes that's a good thing since she won't be drinking all the boba tea while she works.
parties. the overall atmosphere of drunk, high adults all together in one space? her worst nightmare. she attends a few here and there just to socialise, but she ends up leaving after a few hours and one too many harrassments.
sports. never having been an athletic type, malaya hates any and all sports. just watching them tires her out and she finds the whole experience boring. she could never keep her attention on it for very long.
horror movies. it's not that malaya is particularly scared of horror, though an occasional conjuring movie might give her trouble sleeping. it's mostly that she finds the whole concept of horror rather gross and hard to watch.
intense music. there isn't a particularly genre that she dislikes, just the songs that make her head ache and her ears tingle. she prefers soft, melodic songs opposed to bass turned all the way up.
being interrupted. although malaya's energy tends to mean she interrupts other people, she hates when it's done to her. not for any respect reasons, but because it often means that she forgets what she was saying in the first place.
one. malaya doesn't eat breakfast anymore. back in the philippines, it used to be her most important meal and she would never miss it. now, she has worked it out of her routine and in its place takes a morning shower opposed to a night one.
two. after seven months of living in korea, malaya took up knitting. she wanted to develop a hobby, since she hadn't had one since ten year old her thought she could be the next picasso. it took her a few months of uneven mittens and hats with holes in it, for her to make a breakthrough with the hobby. now, she loves to knit for her fellow students and accepts comissions for items.
three. she would love to have a small pet like a hamster or fish, but is happy enough to do her part in taking care of the global house cat.
four. malaya has never had a boyfriend, which is strange because she's the most romantic soul ever. she hopes that her first boyfriend comes soon, and she'd prefer if it were haesol.
five. has a terrible fear of the dark. as such, she sleeps with a night light. it's designed to look like a moon.
six. malaya's room has a very light, artistic aesthetic. the colour scheme includes a lot of beige, pink, and white. her walls have various framed pieces of arts, inspirational quotes from the bible and a section dedicated to pictures of herself and her friends.
seven. when it comes to habits, malaya doesn't have too many. the notable ones being: pacing the room whilst in deep thought, tapping the tips of her fingers together (like a crab.) and twisting the rings on her fingers.
eight. malaya does not drive, nor has she learned. instead, she cycles to most places on her light blue bicycle.
nine. while malaya wants kids eventually, she doesn't want to have them. has never interested her, and mostly repulses her so she'd rather adopt.
ten. malaya's scent is that of mild vanilla, a result of her hygeine products.
09:00-12:00: classes at campus.
12:00-13:00: quick break at get well soon, usually joined by hada.
13:30-19:30: work at 'bubble t king'
19:45-20:15: prayer at church.
20:15-23:00: free time.
09:00-12:00: classes at campus.
12:00-12:30: prayer at church.
12:30-14:30: free time.
14:45-21:45: work at 'bubble t king'
22:00-23:00: free time.
09:00-09:30: prayer at church.
9:30-12:00: free time.
12:00-15:00: classes at campus.
15:15-17:15: volunteering at care home.
17:30-23:00: free time.
09:00-09:30: prayer at church.
9:30-12:00: volunteering at care home.
12:00-19:00: work at 'bubble t king'.
15:15-17:15: volunteering at care home.
17:15-23:00: free time.
09:00-12:00: classes at campus.
9:30-12:00: free time.
12:00-19:00: work at 'bubble t king'.
19:15-20:15: volunteering at care home.
20:30-21:00: prayer at church.
21:15-23:00: free time.
09:00-12:00: classes at campus.
9:30-12:00: free time.
12:00-19:00: work at 'bubble t king'.
19:15-20:15: volunteering at care home.
20:30-21:00: prayer at church.
21:15-23:00: free time.
09:00-11:00: church service.
11:00-23:00: free time / rest.
sleep schedule: malaya is very strict on not staying up past 11pm, though how early she sleeps varies. she always makes sure to eat dinner first though, even if it means she's falling asleep over a bowl of soup.
routine: malaya keeps a routine for each day, that she tries her hardest to stick to -- since unexpected changes make her uneasy. she has reminders on her phone and around three calendars in her room, that keep her on track.
work: for half of her first year in korea, malaya was relying on funds from her mother since nobody wanted to hire her because... well, she was foreign and couldn't speak korean that well. she was eventually hired in december of that year, by a bubble tea shop that was owned by the family of a friend she'd made in class. he'd made a case for her working there to his parents, and thus malaya started.
volunteering: malaya started volunteering the minute she finally settled down in korea. she briefly volunteered at a nursery, but then transferred to a care home near the dorms. she doesn't do much, but it must mean a lot to the patients there -- that she sits down and talks to them like they're actual human beings.
free time: for malaya, free time can be a range of anything. studying, hanging out with friends, going on little trips, etc. most of the time, she chooses to study for these periods of time but occasionally analyn can convince her to accept hyunsik's offer of going to the movies. sometimes (a lot of the time) malaya uses this spare time to leave gifts for haesol.
get well soon: malaya has made a habit of going to the cosy cafe after her monday classes. hada usually joins her if she can spare the time, and it tends to be one of malaya's favourite times of the week. not that hada's boss is particularly happy with malaya hogging her while she's working.
sunday: because malaya is a catholic, and a roman catholic at that -- her sabbath day is considered to be the sunday. on this day, she does not work nor does she study. it is a day of rest for her and she tends to spend the day catching up on some rest, chatting with analyn and watching tv.
imagery: pinky promises, cat & dog, breezy summer days, unique mugs, soft rugs, sunshine & rain.
there isn't a lot to their relationship considering haesol most likely doesn't remember her name. they've crossed paths with acknowledgement only a few times, in which malaya had fallen hopelessly, pathetically in love with him.
the first time she saw him, he was sprawled out on one of the library sofas. he had the most worn-out look on his face, perhaps the most fatigued she had ever seen anyone. she watched him for a little bit, studying the tension in his entire body and the way it seemed to disappear when, what malaya assumed was, his friends appeared. that switch was enough to intrigue malaya.
after that day, she seemed to spot him everywhere. she was only a first year, barely anything to anyone at yonsei. haesol, despite being a third year, had been so kind to her the next time she saw him. in a rush and not paying attention, she had knocked into him and spilled his drink all over him. she expected anger but instead she got understanding. humour. kindness?
imagery: longing glances, heart-shaped chocolates, floral patterns, warm fireplaces, starlight.
since malaya could remember, analyn was by her side. after meeting in kindergarten, it didn't take long for the two girls to become as thick as thieves. despite the differences in them as people, and their lifestyles -- something drew them together.
malaya's mother didn't like the friendship between them since analyn wasn't catholic. it didn't seem to be a life-changing problem at first, but eventually malaya was given an ultimatum. as far as alma knew, malaya had cut the friendship off. the girls knew different. they continued on as best friends, but kept the arrangement a secret. malaya felt guilty for lying, but she just couldn't leave analyn.
nowadays, their friendship is both easier and harder at the same time. easier in the sense that they don't have to keep it secret, but harder in the sense that aya is in korea and analyn is in america. still, they make sure to keep in contact. whenever one girl has a little bit of time, they'll call the other and chat for a little bit. both of them are determined to stay together because after all they've done to be together, a difference in countries isn't going to stop them. after all, analyn is everything aya likes within herself and more.
imagery: home, the smell of the sea, familiarity, old friends, knowing smiles.
aya has never been particularly close with her mother. in fact, mostly it seems like alma had a daughter for the sake of having one, because it was the 'natural flow of life'. sure, aya got spoiled with gifts -- but there was never any deep connection between the two. this wasn't to say that they didn't love each other because they did. it was just love given because it was expected.
after aya moved to korea, this diconnection was clear. since she wasn't in her mothers presence all of the time, she could see the cracks in their relationship. she could see the tricks of alma, and how un-motherlike she was at times. for a while, she ignored this because it was what god would have wanted her to do. but with every call home that was full of her mother talking about herself, the church and anything under the sun except her daughter -- she could feel her faith start to slip.
in those moments, it was clear that pretty soon she would be ostracised like her father was.
imagery: long distance, foggy days, confusion, broken clocks, dirty mirrors.
before the fallout, malaya had a best friend in her father. she was his little girl and he was her hero. alma spoiled her with gifts while parker spoiled her with genuine love. he spoon-fed her vegetables to her like a plane, pushed her on the playpark swings and let her crawl into his arms whenever she had a nightmare. alma may have been her mother, but parker was her dad.
their relationship changed as she grew, but only in the ways it's supposed to. instead of aeroplane vegetables, it was loving advice on how to handle boys. instead of pushing her on the swings, it was staying up all night to help her with math problems. the nightmares never quite went away though, and parker never stopped letting her crawl into his arms.
when he left, malaya was heartbroken. not being able to cuddle him and poke the birthmark on his shoulder, was a real struggle for her. though she called him and texted, it just wasn't the same. when her mother forbade even that, aya wished she had appreciated the little that she had before she had nothing.
his words always sat in the back of her mind, the ones he said before he left. "be who you are, not who the world is telling you to be." and out of fear, she had pushed the words away. fear of what finding herself would do to her. but as she grew older and older, the words began to shift forward from their place in the backroom. as they did, she missed her dad more than words could ever say.
imagery: lost & found, holding hands, desperation, breezy days, childhood adolescence.
hyunsik and aya met because they both chose the same course at yonsei. aya had naturally became somewhat friends with a lot of people in the class, hyunsik being one of them. at first, he was a little hard to get used to - what with his flirtacious, mischeivious personality - but eventually aya had made a good friend in him.
he didn't mind that she was behind on the language, or that she often denied his requests to hang out in favour of church. he didn't mind that in everyway possible, they seemed to be different. his parents minded a little more when hyunsik started asking them if aya could work at their family shop. for the same reasons other places didn't hire her, his parents were hesitant but hyunsik was insistent and stubborn and didn't give up. malaya has been working there for almost two years now.
aya is glad to have met him, not only because he got her a job, but because despite his vexing behaviour -- he was a good person when she needed one.
-- please, please, PLEASE show hada and malaya's friendship. their monday cafe dates, malaya's helping hand constantly hovering, hada pretending to be annoyed at malaya's blatant affection but secretly adoring it. literally hada and her annoying puppy dog.
-- i'd love to see malaya pining over haesol: leaving him love letters, boxes of his favourite sweets, a rose here or there. lovesick puppy vibes.
-- global house friendship <3
-- someone helping malaya with her korean and translating the things she doesn't understand.
-- dorm cat. its canon. ive made it canon. theres a cat that lives in the global house and the residents all take care of it.
-- aya gets a video call from analyn whose in america. with analyn is a familiar face, also in america. her dad :( 3 who she hasnt had contact with since her mother cut it off.
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