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❏ lee rurira: 이루리라. the way of introducing herself on her channel by herself as a self-introduction, friends as a joke and her fans. loosely meaning "hoping everything will come true". most people started calling her this as a nickname. it become a fun nickname.
❏ english: proficient, constantly learning and improving. does have an accent in her english. learnt in school and university, some lectures, reading sources and textbooks being in english. uses her english now to sing pop songs, randomly in her daily speech, read comments or dms, and travelling purposes.
as for her fashion sense, ruri dresses to impress with her trendy way of clothing. she pays attention to what's currently hot on the market and often expands her wardrobe through the references. she can do a lot of different styles. heck, she could make a sweatshirt and jeans look good without having to put much effort. if there was anyone whose best fit to be an instagram fashion inspiration, it's ruri after all.
when faced with a difficulty, she's able to come up and suggest a quick and clever way to overcome it. this is all supported by her ability to notice things quickly. she's aware of her surroundings and others' actions. she pays attention to the words of others and takes note of them. she's usually the first person to compliment you on your new bangs or new outfit. even if you thought she wasn't paying attention, you'd be surprised by how much she knows through observing the room.
perhaps, her most noticeable traits would be her punctuality. her "on time" ability is one that she gains praise from. she's able to organize or manage her time to be able to complete a required task or fulfill an obligation without passing the deadline. she's the type of friend who'd arrive earlier than the promised hangout time. she has this mindset that it's better to be ten minutes early than five minutes late.
she has her own double-edged swords. her childhood shaped her to be a complex person for others. she's rather difficult to read and understand her. this helps her protect her emotions from harm as it's harder to pierce through her. the way she's had to fight on her own feet since a young age has made her self-reliant and her confidence in her abilities helps her feel like she can overcome anything by herself. this only makes it hard for her to rely and trust on others for things that need to be done together and others find it hard to find a mutual ground with her so it's easier for them to not get in her way.
having to compete with her older siblings all her life, her strong desire to be more successful led her to become competitive in life. she competes with herself and against others. when she competes with herself, she makes a lot of progress in her productivity. it's good but she lets this migrate into her private life as she also competes against others, it often strains her relationships with the people in her surroundings. one prominent evident in the relationship she has with her older sister.
to pair with this is her ambition. yes, she knows what she wants to do and the steps to constantly move towards it. she has strong drive to achieve that ambition of hers but she often forgets that ambition is not essentially the ultimate goal of life and ambition should not replace higher priorities such as kindness and humility. her competitiveness paired with her ambitions sometimes make her forget about the simple achievements that can make herself happy in the process.
in order to guard herself, she shows a reluctance to express her feelings or thoughts. she takes a while to warm up and what you see her portray in front of others is what she does as her emotion-focused coping mechanisms. she does the bare minimum of manners and answers to give her time to adapt and open up in her own time. people often wonder how on earth she could work as someone on youtube when she's rather more quiet but it's mostly due to her multifaceted approach to life, she's able to be talkative according to the situation and ambiance thus more often than not, people misread her as an extrovert rather than an introvert.
there is something to ruri's speech that is direct, clever, and unmasked. her words rarely steer away from the truth and ruri personally thinks that being honest may hurt but it's better than being a liar if it means not being hurt by others. why work in a way that can stir misunderstandings or malicious rumors when she could just be transparent about it? she often unknowingly hurts the feelings of others in the process. when she feels cornered in an argument or discussion, her languages or actions often become hostile but due to her stubbornness, she's determined not to change her stance as she's attached to her own beliefs, opinions, and tastes. she becomes defensive when there are people who disagree with her and she's doesn't back down. deep down, this is her method of avoiding the pain of being controlled by others.
born as the third and youngest child, ruri had to be able to compete with her two older siblings. her older sister was preferred for her charms and ways with words as well as her academic track record while her older brother became the pride of the house because he was the only son and had the "nicest" personality among the three. young ruri hated it to an extent. she had always felt like she lost the battle to win their favor and the way her sister boasts about it to her irked her. at least, she had her kind brother to give her a pat in the back but even then, she felt like she was being pitied.
they did shower her with love because she was the youngest but she always concluded inside her mind that deep down, they're only doing it out of pity because she was the only child who had nothing special to bring to the table. she was frustrated because at school, she never failed a test despite the occasional low grades. though, she had to admit that rahoon was definitely the nicest out of the siblings.
for most of her teenage years, she kept thinking that she was the leftover, the least favorite in the bunch. she never really knew how to find herself or her passion. she always wanted to have a spark, after all. the privilege that came with having a high-paying father was that she was able to have support in doing so, especially since she's showered with the love the youngest child usually receives. she had quit most of the athletic activities starting from archery to tennis to badminton because she didn't enjoy it but there's something about sports that she enjoyed watching from a distance. just not as the person doing it.
the school nurse had smirked every time she came by. "at this point, you should try and consider yourself the unofficial first aid of the school. your classmates trust you too muchwith their eeny meany scraps that it's quite entertaining. try and think about it," the good-looking school nurse once told her. those words resonate to ruri too close to her heart for her not to think about it. it meant she could have something that sets her apart from her siblings but when? where? how? she didn't know how to accept this new truth. she can't help but contemplate on her life. i really want to be different. i want to be better than hwanhee and rahoon in something. just anything.
she felt as if she could really achieve her purpose if she only worked hard to maintain her grades in high school. that's why she tried her best not to fail anything and that's how she managed to attend yeong-ung university. ruri enjoyed every second of her time as a student enrolled at yeong-ung university. more so, when in her freshman year, she updated a vlog of a day in her life and a study with me video as a yeong-ung student as a means to preserve several memories of her college life. this caused her to suddenly rise as an upcoming lifestyle content creator, something ruri didn't realize she would do. she enjoys life as a content creator, though, despite the shortcomings she realized in herself such as lack of aesthetic touch or video editing. since then, ruri sees her content creating channel as a "just for fun" facility to express herself, to preserve the moments and memories in life, to leave a mark of her own on the world and perhaps, most importantly— take pride in having a concrete proof of a product of her own skill and creativity. as some of her classmates say, "if there's anyone from us whose most suited to be a youtuber, it would be ruri and we should've seen it coming."
❏ matcha ice cream
❏ mystery or thriller movies
❏ dogs
❏ video games
❏ woody oriental scents
❏ seafood
❏ eggplants
❏ bad grades
❏ off-shoulder tops
❏ greasy or oily foods
❏ strawberries
❏ scaredy cats
❏ massaging her temples when she's stressed
❏ doodling on paper when she's disinterested or bored
❏ pulling all-nighter when required
❏ always on time, arrives earlier than the determined time
❏ listening to music
❏ watching movies or series
❏ swimming or stretching
❏ reading webtoons or books
❏ handles alcohol well, amuses her housemates every time she pulls off these skillful snap of the wrist when opening bottles of soju or beer (or virtually any liquor)
❏ there's a rumor that you can't beat her in drinking games
❏ really likes coffee that she calls it her second best friend or saviour
❏ needs to listen to music when she's studying. she rejects the idea of classical music as her studying partner and prefers upbeat songs to keep her awake and motivated.
❏ her sister calls her "slyther" all the time and she'll retaliate saying "well, you're just a snake"
❏ has a variety of silk and satin pajamas for when she's chilling. other choices of clothes to wear at home are lace tank tops and sport shorts or sweatshirts.
❏ doesn't brag about her video gaming skills, saying "it's usually the braggers who the most"
❏ the current head-to-head score line between her and her brother rahoon on fifa20 is 4 : 2 while san is painstakingly losing at 5:1
❏ can't cook for her life but doesn't really try to improve or learn at all since she tolerates her cooking skills as long as she doesn't starve
❏ very interested in photography as she really likes to take pictures of scenery or crowded places, currently getting into analog cameras
❏ seems to make dude or bro friends much easier than with other girls.
❏ her celebrity crush? she'll show you what she calls "the hottest picture of sebastian stan that ever existed" but she wouldn't deny that ariana grande is a very close second
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as much as they insist on firing sarcasm and insults to each other whenever they see each other, there are surprisingly rare instances they cease fire. the teamwork they showcase in the face of a mutual enemy is quite frightening. as long as it benefits them both, why not? they'd gladly agree to work together to elibyeolte an external threat who tries to sneak their way in the middle of their quarelling. hwanhee would tell her straight away, nobody tries to outsmart us, right, sis?
she cried a river when she found out he was to report for his military service a few months ago. without him around, she'd have to withstand hwanhee by herself whenever she's not on duty. like he always does, he reassures her and wiped her tears. it was painful for him, too, as he'd lose twenty three months of his life to serving in the navy but he didn't let it show in front of ruri as he said, "you've always been a fighter, ruri, even without me."
a responsible and hardworking person, it's not surprising if byeol and ruri can work together professionally well as their work ethics and style match despite the contrast in personality. perhaps, byeol finds everything about ruri rather admirable or cool in a way from her confidence, smooth talking, quick thinking, and "on time" work ethic even when byeol easily backs down from ruri's headstrong moments and sometimes needs help in recovering from the harsh comments of the younger yet taller girl. as long as the other girls can keep the two in a cooperative and good mood, there shouldn't be any problems between the two.
seeing that ruri and san are close, byeol does often her brother about ruri and talk about her to him in which san always comes in and helps her understand or get to know ruri better. having san around does help ease whatever happens between the two girls so slowly but surely, the two will get comfortable with one another and perhaps get to call each other friends. in the meantime, san and ruri are often seen joking around with one another as normal friends do but not as close as besties yet not as distant as acquaintances; their friendship is something that is enough distance and fun at the same time and ruri could not ask for a more reliable friend.
the best friend of her brother since childhood, gye sunwoo had always been this prince charming in ruri's eye. he was different from her brother; smart, sociable, fun and witty (at least in ruri's eyes). it didn't take her long to have this admiration for sunwoo which she realized early on during high school. to ruri, it was not just a long-time crush but gye sunwoo was the first love that has brought a strong impression on her life. the flutters whenever she was in close proximity to sunwoo had always made ruri act unlike her and that was rare for someone with her demeanour. she never confronted sunwoo with her feelings, only staying within the safe lines of being a close friend and "best friend's sister" due to considering the possibilities of being dumped and she didn't like to be on the end with disadvantages. that was just not her.
after she enrolled into yeong-ung university (the same university as her brother and sunwoo), she decided to confess to him when she turned twenty. it was one day after she had finished her lab class and met him on the way to a nearby cafe. "ah, thank you for liking me, ruri. i really cherish you as a little sister a-and i really never saw you that way, ruri-" before sunwoo could continue, ruri intervened, "well, then, thank you for being everything that was good, for being the highteen first love of my life. it's been great knowing you, sunwoo sunbae." with a sad hint in her smile, ruri extended her hand to sunwoo in which they ended up shaking hands. sunwoo knew deep down that he has certainly ed up; he had hurt her deeply to the point of no repair to their relationship. this was the end of the era, the time they knew one another. did sunwoo ever notice ruri's feelings for him? no, he always took her as more easy-going than several others and so, he thought ruri also saw him as a friend because of how comfortable and casual they were with one another since they were kids. he spoke the truth to ruri. she was indeed just his best friend's sister.
after the hand shake, ruri excused herself as she felt tears flooding her eyes. sunwoo's beckoning of her faded out to the background as she walked away from the scene. such was the final scene of her first love. sunwoo is now currently an archivist working on a research piece somewhere in europe (or so rahoon tells her) and ruri has never crossed paths with him ever since his graduation from yeong-ung nor does she have the intention (or guts) to kindly welcome him if she does see him after how the last page of her first love ended. she has promised to keep alive only the good memories but well, such is much easier said than done, especially with a significant part of her life.
14:30-17:30 physiology of exercise (lecture)
— due to her internship being done during the semester, she is not often seen on campus before the afternoon. where does she eat lunch? she'll probably grab a quick bite somewhere by taking out something as she commutes back to campus, either through subway or taxi, which wouldn't take more than 20 minutes.
sedate, inner-directed
competitive, prideful, self-critical, aloof, unsystematic
"i can't change the world so all i can do is change myself for the better, yaknow?" is something hwiyoung would definitely say. a lot of his motivation is inner-directed, purely driven by his own decisions, actions and thoughts. not to mention, his gut feelings. it's a good thing when he's fully immersed in his work but becomes bad when he's prone to adapt the "my way" approach and seem rather demanding, intimidating or dominating in a certain situation that he feels he has control of. being a varsity level swimming athlete doesn't help either since his competitive spirit is always ignited. it is good for his sport when he does have that fire and drive driven by the desire to make it on the podium. it becomes bad when he treats small things in life like studying, doing classwork, interviews and petty fights with drunken men as something similar to a swimming meet since he often forgets: there's no definite win and losses in life so you can't make everything into a swim meet. a lesson that's like a hard to swallow until today.
in return, hwiyoung had a chance to enjoy university life as it is and make friends. he's clocking in more times on campus with his friends during lectures or afterwards than during high school which is a big difference. sure, he still had his swimming practice and physical training but he was enjoying life and so was ruri, albeit the stressful lectures and lengthy lab hours on her end. he wasn't competing as much as he did in the past so he found that there was a wide range of things he could possibly do.
why couldn't he be in gye sunwoo's place? why couldn't he be him?
"kim hwiyoung, is it?"
"yes, what seems to be a problem?"
"i think you know all too well about lee ruri, don't you? she's a really nice girl but you already know that, don't you?"
"what seems to be the moral lesson here, sunbaenim? i don't seem to catch it."
"i'm just saying that she's nice in general not because she's rahoon's sister but since she's his sister, i don't see her in the way she sees me so do me a favor and brace for impact as her bestie? ciao~"
hwiyoung should've understood it the moment sunwoo said that. it meant ruri was going to be dumped. that won't end up well. he should've said something directly to her but he had no right timing as the world bombarded him with editing videos, swimming practices, swimming meets and physical training all at once. he hated the world for once. he couldn't tend to ruri and ruri understood the message since he's busy as it is. she just didn't expect the rejection from sunwoo.
so, she called hwiyoung on the taxi ride on the way back in a tearful voice.
"hwiyoung... hwiyoung.."
"no wonder they say first loves don't happen. mine didn't. he said no."
hwiyoung knew he messed up for not doing her better. he could've helped her prepare but he didn't and he was beating himself for it even if ruri continues to reassure him that it's not his fault. they ended up on a silent consensus that it was out of their control and none of their faults. they can't control or change fate and their lives need to go on.
ruri enjoys the grey area they are in, frankly. it's a safe retreat at the fear of being hurt or rejected once more as much as she hates to admit it. she's recovered from rejection but she's still scared regardless. she may not be aware of the underlying feelings that hwiyoung harbors for her but his presence in her life is starting to permeate in a good way that she will have to realize it sooner or later. he makes her a better person, softer in her words and less calculated. she can't deny how valueable he is in her life since he allows her to run loose without worrying about faking herself to be just real.
+ i noticed that an applicant had listed hwiyoung as their ex so with that in mind, it'd be interesting to see how that dynamic plays out in spite of what i wrote for ruri's relationship with that plotline because yikes!
++ i just realized this as i was 75% done with app that i may have a mistake in her age because you mentioned byeol and san were '99 liners due to a possible mistake. but since ruri was born in september which is the later half of the year, perhaps we can take the route of her being in the same batch as '00 liners due to her birth month if that's possible.
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