To be honest... 

I am quite weak since I was a child. But back in highschool, I was pretty healthy. Very much healthy since I workout a lot. I was an athletes of the school and everybody knows me because of that. 😂 

Not exactly the star of the school but, definitely a well known one by the students. Say my name, they'll know it right away. The Best Long Distance Runner of the athlete team.😅 At least that was what they told me my nickname was. 

I was pretty much a good runner. My lung capacity is much better than now. I can run 15km like nothing back then and our coach would always told me that I was very fitting for a 1500m and 3000m, from the first day I was in the team. 

I'm not very good with sprint. I am too nervous when I heard the gun sound. 😅 But for a long distance athlete, I am the fastest for a sprinter. My record was 9.84second for 100m sprint. My classmate would scare the out of them whenever our class had P.E subject.😅 Because of me and my athletic and competitive . 

But, ever since I've graduated from highschool, I've been quite weak. My health is deteriorating, A LOT. My breath hitched whenever I walk more that 3km. My weight was very ideal when I was in highschool. I used to weigh 53 to 55kg and that was my healthiest, golden weight. I was pretty much chubby and back then, my hands didn't look as bony.😅 

To be honest, I like it back then when I was very healthy tho I'm a little bit chubby.😂 Right now, I look way to skinny for my own likings.

As I'm pretty weak now, my body can't handle too much pressure. If I am stressed a lot, my body would be exhausted. I used to be very strong, for a girl, and now, I hardly could carry a 10kg sack of rice when I used to carry 70kg of frozen meat and chicken everyday back then. I'm still young, yet I am very weak like an old person. 😅 

I can't handle watching any violence too, and that is ever since I was a child. I would be panicked and I can't see too much blood in one time. I am pretty much blood allergic.🤣 Almost fainted too when I chopped my pinky with a butcher knife months ago.😂

And, I'm not a damsel in distress. I hate it when people called me that. Because I know my body well. My body might be weak but I never let people deal with my mess. I absolutely hate it whenever people tried to meddle or solve my mess for me. Because I learn to manage myself in highschool alone. I am just build weak but I can handle everything without anyone meddling. 

I hardly ask for help because I know at certain point how much and where is my limit. Like I said, I may look weak but I am not as weak that I always need someone to deal with my mess. No. 

I know my body well. I just need to work on my health more. 🤣