To the woman who made me believe in forever:

In a few days, it'll be two years since our relationship ended. Are you happy now? Do you feel secured now? It's been two years, yet I can still remember that time I asked you to say 'I love you' for the last time. You were crying so much. I never thought that hearing that 'I love you' could cause you so much tear. Did it hurt when you said those words? Was that request too much? I'm sorry, love. I'm sorry for making you feel so much pain.

When we broke up, you told me that it wasn't my fault, but after all the confrontations thereafter, it turned out that I was really at fault. Again, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for making you suffer so much. We tried. I know we tried to fix us but we just can't pin what was the problem. Maybe because everything piled up to the point that we got so used to it and had began tolerating it. We got blinded by the toxicity of what we become as lovers. If someone would ask me now how long our relationship lasted, I'd say two years, because the thirteen  months that followed was just us tolerating each other. We totally gave up by the end of December 2018. Our break up started before we officially called it quits.

On that last year of being together, I told you that even after we break up, I would still care and love you. Guess what, I still do care and I am still in love with you. It's not that I'm still hung up, I already moved on from the heartbreak and pain that our separation caused me. Now I'm only left with my love for you. Unchanged and constant. I would often refer to you to my friends as my 'Greatest Love', because that is who you are to me. Two people came and passed by whom I loved. But every after those relationships, my feelings for you did not waver. You remained to be my 'Love of my Life', and I don't think it'll change ever. Now, I'm not saying nor planning to pursue you and get you back. I know that you're happy with your current relationship, and I want you to stay that happy. Your happiness is my happiness.

If you ever feel that the world is against you, just know that I will always root for you. I will always care for you. Cliche as it may sound, but I will always love you. I'll always be here for you, praying for your safety and happiness.

I love you, Mew.

Always yours,

AR