2020 Fic Archive - My Silly Performance Review
2020.... what a year. What. A. Year
I know I don't really write in AFF all that much anymore but for some reason I find this place the most comfortable for when I want to write just a rambling post about silly things nskdj so
Please bear with me!
I really love doing this thing because i can look back and see how much I grew (or fluctuate... idk) from the past years.
Extra note: I didn't really do one in 2019 because... well because 2019 is 2019 :)) 2020, oddly enough, really was a year for a lot of healings so for however ty this year has been, I can't really grow to fully dispise it l o l. I'll add a few comparisons to my performance in 2019 just to show how different they were sdkjf.
Total stories published:
10... and a half! :D because one of them is a continuation from something I started in 2019.
In 2019 I wrote 6 fics (with much less word count in each)
Fandoms I wrote in:
NCT = 8
Red Velvet = 1
:P I honestly should start writing more red velvet fics god help me.
Total Word Count:
128k
skdjf yes I write monsters this year
Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you'd predicted?
Definitely more kjsdnf honestly anything I could've done this year would've been more satisfying to me compared to what I did in 2019... tbh.
What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January?
2020 literally the year where I only write my comfort ships ksdjnf we don't have time to explore this year ok???
Honestly in 2021 I hope to write more pairings and just have more fun with new dynamics because I think I'll be more comfortable doing that now that I've strengthened my base ability in writing.
As for genre, I did try to delve back into horror with my halloween bonanza series, and to be honest... it was... fun? Ironically a less terrifying experience than what I thought it would be. I think the main reason for this change in outlook is: I've always written horror as if I'm writing them for the screen. And now, I've learned that you gotta pull different strings to scare or disturb people in a written format.
I know I gotta keep working on this, because I'm still dreaming on writing my RV witch coven au!
What's your own favorite story of the year?
:))))
I literally typed out star love but omg I can't really abandon kiss & cry??? like
can I choose two? They both are my babies this year honestly those two stories really reawakened my love for writing that was taken from me in 2019 ksjdnjf
Did you take any writing risks this year?
hmm let's see:
Starting a 10 chaptered story 2 weeks before they're due? (yes, they. I pulled this shenanigans twice). Don't worry though... I finished them (sort of) on time ksjdnkf
Also, I joined a fucc ton of fic fests and fic exchanges to boost my motivation and now I've gotten addicted...
The only 'serious' / ambitious fics I've produced are all due to fic fests lmaoooooo
Do you have any fanfic or profic goals for the new year?
geez louise!!
Honestly I'm noticing how well I perform under strict schedule/deadline/planning so I'm trying to incorporate those more into my writing process
And as for concrete goals, well...
1. Gotta write that pacific rim au for that one pacific rim fic fest. I'm very excited and terrified at the same time for this because I know it's going to turn into a giant monster
2. Please please please start on the rv witch coven au... the idea's there since 2017!!
3. gdi please finish Cheese Dealer
Honestly I think for 2021 I want to start focusing on my long forms / my chaptered fics, and just spend more time getting familiar with character development and building a coherent plot. It was something I really enjoyed doing for Kiss & Cry, so I really want to just dig in my heels and commit!
From my past year of writing what was...
My best story of this year:
God...
Honestly
HONESTLY???
i gotta say star love tbh skdjfnk
I think I'm the most mature I've ever been in that story.
That story is also the first one I've ever given the rating of Mature not because of ual content, but because the subject matter of the story is mature.
My most popular story of this year:
yall bastards :))
catshy
The story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion:
???? tjitjak, tjitjak on the wall ofc!!!!
A section on this story is my 2020 magnum opus and nobody read it lmao pls go past the barrier of the fact that this story's premise is of a gecko who fell in love and ually lusts after a human being and appreciate this attempt at creating high art! LMAOO
The most fun story to write:
Kiss & Cry! Kiss & Cry! Kiss & Cry!!
Honestly Kiss & Cry saved my sanity during the first few months of quarantine. It was such a bright ray of sun everytime I got the chance to write this story, honestly.
The story with the single iest moment:
SEGGSY?????
I didn't really w-
Wait
oh lmao what am I saying I wrote my first explicit mlm in 2020 ksdjnkfj
but of course. Knowing me, my single iest moment of the year didn't really come from my explicit stories. Is that even a surprise?
You know how it's usually hotter when someone teases you, instead of bearing it all, right?
So I gotta bestow this very prestigious award to:
love is a sacrament that should be taken kneeling :DD
The most "holy crap, that's wrong, even for you" story:
The most predictable answer for this question is obviously sweet blob cephalophod.
That story is just... tentacle monster throatf*ck galore lmao
But honestly???
The meanest I've ever been as a writer is of course in star love lmao what are you even trying to imply?
I was so mean in that story. My characters stood no chance.
The hardest story to write:
hhhhhhhhhhh
Inked...?
It's... my first explicit mlm
as a..... biual female leaning to coochies.... too many es scare me.
I literally procrastinated writing the scene in that story for 2 months before rushing to finish it a week before it was due skjdnfkj
The biggest disappointment:
Personally, I'm very happy with the works I've done this year. Quality wise, I think they're... not bad?
Honestly?? Quite ing good???
To be very truthful, I think my biggest disappointment in my writing this year comes from how much I'm starting to once again hang my worth on the masses' response to my story. Like... chill, me. Honestly. I'm doing good.
The biggest surprise:
This year is not really surprising for me but skjdnf i guess me managing to write 60.000 words in around 3 months IS very surprising.
Also me managing to commit and finish a chaptered story that has a story arc lmao
I guess, this year's biggest surprise is me finding out that I'm actually a person that needs strict deadlines to fully perform LMAO my past self really would pummel me down if she knows what current me is doing.
Planning??? DEADLINES???? P L O T??!?!?! blasphemy.
The most unintentionally telling story:
OOOOO boy idk this year is not really a tell all season for myself but
wait
lmao
I forgot I finished Your Song in 2020 lmaooooo
Yeah I guess that's my most telling story (telling my heart break, that is). I gotta give that story credit though, it's the cathartic outlet that I very much need so I can finally accept and live with the single event (no don't worry irl my crush didn't get married) that sapped my creative juice in 2019.
Favorite Opening Line(s)
I am a tjitjak living on Jung Jaehyun’s bedroom walls.
Favorite Closing Line(s):
And from then on, the thought never returned to his mind.
No more if only.
Just Renjun.
12 Days - it makes sense in context ;;
Favorite 5 Lines from Anywhere:
1. ‘Walk first,’ Renjun remembered him saying when he was relearning his and nearly gave up because it felt like his legs consisted of two left ones. ‘If you can walk, you can be beautiful later.’
Kiss & Cry: Going for the Hattrick
2. “We can be boring together.”
3. Crush me with your palm, I thought. I look at his feet and I say, step over me. Kill me. Bring death upon me. And if that were to be my last memory, I would be content.
4. The pressure of the depth filled his lungs and before he knew it, he was already sobbing for mercy. It was a feeling he had tried so hard to forget. The crushing loneliness of the dark. He didn’t need help reminding that he’d never escaped it in the first place.
5. Know how much she hurt me? Not enough. I was still able to fool myself into thinking that I loved her unconditionally enough to say yes.
(Also, honorable mention from the same story:
5.5 Until I can love someone else, let me love you.)
Fic-writing goals for 2021:
I really want to finish my wips........
Just u know
flush em out from my google docs so i don't have to really think about them lmaooo
PS: As you can see, I put all of my works at my AO3 so.... ;)
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