Bittersweet 2020

Hello everyone, not sure how many people are still here but this space has somehow become an annual blog entry. 
It's not the end of the year yet but I have had experienced most of the things that I've never imagined that I'd have to go through all these while.

It started with the pandemic covid-19 and a lock-down in my country. Even though times were tough, I was glad that I was able to stay close to my family.

However, I lost my father in the midst of his tough battle with cancer. I was actually kind of glad that the lock-down happened because I was able to stay by his side for the last few months of his life. It was very heartbreaking to see him suffering through the days but it also made me proud to see that he was fighting till the last second. It was a difficult time for my family as we lost the main man that actually connected my large extended family together. But in a way it was a relief for him to no longer suffer and be in a better place.

On the other hand, I managed to finish my degree despite having a rough battle chasing with time as I needed to finish off a lot of practical work and also to sit for the final papers which were very tough. Thankfully all turned out well and I managed to graduate. It would have been a proud moment to share it with my father in reality, but I knew he would be very proud of me.

Ah, it has been almost 5 months since he's been gone but I still miss him so much. Not sure how will I ever cope with this loss, but I will make him proud in heaven. 

That's all for now. Till then :)

Love, Starridius

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QueenMoona
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Hello my dear friend, I'm sorry you went through that a family loss is big. You know there were a lot of downs in the year 2020 (this may sound insensitive or not) but my family didn't feel the downs others might have felt whether it was staying at home and not being able to do things, covid in general, but it was when we went through a family loss too a month ago when we felt the "badness" of 2020. It's been a lot and we're still just trying to deal with our new normal which is living without that family member.

I'm glad you were able to be with him - there were good things about covid. We don't all get those opportunities and I felt my family got that chance too with covid.

I'm sorry for your loss and I pray for you to be well. Stay safe and healthy <3