So..why?

First, because I'm homoual (Lesbian)

Nobody seems to have a crush on me (girls)

I legit don't have feeling for Males

I had a crush on someone for 2 years and..nothing really happen, I don't think she even knows my existance. We go to the same campus.

I have a distinct TASTE in people (crushes/ideal type) - Like, my likings are too good to be true..Like how? Hint : KPOP IDOLS 

I honestly like Cute, Mature, EasyGoing, has leadership and full of Charisma female. (My ultimate crush)

If I were to tell you more details of my Ideal type/crush..Here's a specific Kpop Idols that currently and long timed I had a crush on :

Apink's Park Chorong and Fromis_9 JiSun (Too good to be true right?)

My likings are all In terms of their Looks and their Personality.  (Besides, even in there's someone like that..They are probabbly Straight)

Yeah..that's why I've been single so far. Even my friends are joking about it sometimes..Till the point they wanted to set me up with someone. (Geezz..)

And at the same time... Even if I found someone that suits my liking..I'll ended up thinking that I don't deserve them and they don't deserve being with someone like me. I feel insecure.

Haaaa...(sigh) IDK what to feel anymore..I honestly want and curious about how it feels to be in a relationship, have someone "special". Like, HOW TF DOES'S THAT FEEL??? Is it fun? Does it gives you the giddy feeling? do you feel good?

Anyway..If you're reading this..If you happen to know someone that clicks with my likings. Mind setting me up? hahaha (JOKING..well, No..well, yea?)

Geez...give me advice..DON'T TELL ME TO GO AND CONFESS to my 2 YEARS CRUSH..Sorry, I don't even know her Number and She's not on any SNS.

I feel lonely sometimes..

I'm a fun person guys it depends on the situation..I'm short tho..like, 154cm..geez..my growth stopped for some reason. 20 years old already..I like, being alone..like, I don't like going to parties or gatherings..unless it's my family's. I don't drink alcohol (except WINE), Coffee (except pure/brew coffee) = I have a teribble Alcohol and caffeine tolerance. I don't go to BARS, CLUBS or PUBS. I'm pretty much a NO JAM person.

If You were to date me? here's what to expect :

If you're cute, you can use your cuteness to Kill me, win the argument..etc (you get it) (I'm weak with cuteness)

DATE? Let's go to a simple cafe, have a drink and talk about life. Go to restaurants, relax, eat, talk about life. Have a walk in parks, take pictures, while having IceCreams. 

I honestly don't like shopping and watching movies as a DATE. Like, I want to enjoy the moment with you. Let's go to a quiet place to sit and talk. Deep conversation. I want to get to know you better.

So, there you have it..Is this why it will never worked? I guess so..

anyway..CAN I really find someone..like how I've always dreamed of.

HELP..I'm lonely yeaahhh...