Some of you may have noticed that I keep on appearing and disappearing here in AFF. I have tried so many times to go back to what I really love which is writing but adult life is too stressful to balance.

For the past five years, I've been struggling to find what I really want to do or what I want to become. Working in the corporate and meeting different people changed the way I think about life. It's true when they say that real life happens after you graduate or once you start working and pay for your bills and save for your future at the same time.

I'm currently in a relationship with this great guy for more than four years now. We will always talk about settling down but we still need to save money for our future but the thing is we're not really saving anything with all the bills and debts that has to be paid.

I will not lie and tell you I never had the thought of giving up because trust me, I've lost count on how many times I've cried myself to sleep at nights and wonder what's going on with my life.

At the age of 26, most of my friends and classmates already have settled down - married and they already cute little kids. When I was 10, I remember telling myself I should be married and have kids at the age of 27 but it looks like it's not going to happen any time soon.

But you know what I've gained after all the struggles and hardships I've gone through - maturity.

I've learned to accept the fact that everything happens for a reason and everything will happen at the right time. Cliche, I know but it's damn accurate.

Take my relationship as an example. Before I met my current boyfriend, I was trying too hard to be in a relationship with guys that were not even worth my time and effort. And when I stopped trying to look for love, love found me instead.

I prayed for a kind man but I got a godly man who respects and loves me and not only me but also the things I love especially my family.

So to you, if you're reading this and you think that life isn't going the way you have planned it, that's life being fair to everyone. Know that when it doesn't happen, then it's either not right time or God has a better plan for you.

Just hang in there and when God says it's time, everything will be worth it.

PS. Stay hydrated and sanitized, loves.