Having someone who is unexpected to heal the pain that I felt is something that I never dreamed of. I can barely think about that man who left me anymore, it does not hurt when I see that person’s picture anymore, all because of him.

I do not know how he does that, but I have moved on completely, which is something that I would never believe that I could do, because moving on is a tough task for me. I put all of my feelings and time, I fell hard and gave all of my love for someone so it is hard for me to erase it all and forget about that. But, I did it. Somehow, that man just does not mean so much to me anymore, although I still think that he is someone that once has made my life be more meaningful and remains as a beautiful memory.

He comes to me like a sudden shooting star, shocking but pleasant. It all just started with constant texting about some interesting topics that I usually would not talk about. As what my friends usually say, I am too dense to know if someone is interested with me so when he eventually confessed that he was interested in me and wanted to know me more, I was shocked and did not even know what to say. I really thought that he just wanted to be my friend but he clearly had another intention.

Because I actually am not a fan of texting, but I do not know why, I would always reply to him although he texted me like every second and every day. From the second that I woke up until the night when I went to sleep. He was always there, asking me how I was and even informing me of what he was up to. Sometimes, when my friend called and asked about him, I would whine about being too lazy and too tired of replying his texts but my fingers unconsciously kept on typing. That was how it is, I did not want to accept that my feelings were growing, for him.

His morning greetings, me being wide awake until three, his warm goodnight, maybe all of that has grown in me for these three weeks. Until, he broke the news that I never expected it would happen.

He will move to somewhere far away, which indirectly means that we will not meet again.

Staring at his messages, I was stunned. Then, what was the point? We will not meet, ever again, what was the point on continuing this? He might have thought the same because what he did was texting me for a couple more minutes and then stopped. He usually would make sure to keep the conversation going, no matter how short my reply is, but not that time. He just, stopped. So, that’s how it was. It ended, when we were not even started yet.

He made me forget about the pain but he created the new pain. It hurts, it really is. And it hurts more that I am writing it all down right now. I know it sounds stupid, with just three weeks and all we did was texting each other, and I already felt like this? On top of that, I actually only met him face to face for only two times, why am I feeling sad?

I usually am not the kind of girl that would easily open up my heart, but he made me do that. I let him in, to know about me, to learn about some aspects in my life that remain inside me. But now, he leaves me, just like how that person left me.

Maybe that’s what I deserve, yes, maybe.