Weight Gain and A plan to Diet.
Hello everyone! It’s been awhile since I posted a blog. I haven’t update anything on asianfanfics for the past month as I am struggling to focus on my exams and college. Now I am currently on three months break, that I decided to upload a new blog to talk and discuss with everyone about something that has been bothering me for years and making me feel not confident with myself. The topic that i want to discuss with everyone is about weight gains and diet.
So to start out, when I was 14, I gained a lot of weight. This start because I was stressing out over bullies issues when I was at school and it end up causing me Isolating myself from everyone and then also leading me to eat a lot to make me feel better. Not only that, stressing out over studies leading this situation happen too. This situation continues, and I kept on eating food without knowing that I am gaining more weight . People around me keep telling me that I gained weight too much. I thought it was like a normal weight gain. At that time, I thought my bmi was normal, as I still wear size M clothing. so I keep on eating food without noticing that my food portion is getting bigger and bigger. In the year of 2014, my clothing size changed from M to XL. And this time, I still did not realize how much weight I’ve gained and how big I have become. Times past by and my clothing size get bigger from XL to 2XL in the year of 2018. This time, again i thought I am just overweight.
My realization only hits when i got into university to pursue my degree, where the first year student have to do medical check up ( last year on September ). The doctor over there told me that I am obese stage 1. I was speechless I would say. Like I do not know that I am gonna be this big.
I cried a lot over it and I tried to diet but failed as the pressure of studying killing me slowly too which it makes me eat more food. At this time, I actually try to accept myself as who I am. Like hey its okay if you’re bigger in clothing size, just be yourself and love yourself.
But those loves, it gone. I was unable to love myself anymore as I get critism over and over from my family where they kept saying that I am fat like the refrigerator, I should stop eating, if i walk the whole ground is breaking. Not only that, my sister and my cousin said mean stuff to me too. There was one time where I went out with both of them, they park their car far from the shopping mall entrance. They ask me if I am okay with it, and I was like its okay, and then they told me that ‘oh just incase you feel tired of working, i means both of us are slim and you are fat, so I thought you gonna be tired of walking, haha’ . Not only that they keep making fun of my weight. Saying that i am big fat, and the most painful comment I have received was I am fat like a pig. This comments hit me a lot. I got constant critism, how I am so fat. I cried a lot over this that it kills me. Imagine, I am only 155cm, and with weight at 80kg, you can imagine how fat I am.
So I am planning to start a diet, and I plan to do diet just like Iu or Suzy or Seolhyun. But then I changed my mind. That I need proper diet. So I wrote this blog to ask help from everyone about what should I eat, and is there any vitamins I should take , what exercise I should do or anything related to weight lost. Hopefully, I can lose weight so I can shut their mouth and hopefully, love myself.
Thank you for reading ❤️
p/s: I wrote this using my phone so idk if there is any typos or there is some information that I did not add on. Feel free to ask me anything. ❤️
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