When you look at me, I lose all the color in my heart 

The monochrome dyes me but still I hold onto 

The only thing I know dear, it's you 

Your painful scars make you strong 

But mine make me fragile and 

I shed tears, drown in my fears

Knowing you aren't really here

 

I invited you to tear me apart 

To make me hurt even more 

Failing to heal you is my art 

And just like that, I'm lost in the dew

 

Still, even though I know 

I want your fake love and your touch too

Your heat in particular 

My hypothermia is freezing up my heart

So I want your body to play the part

At this rate, I know that I'll 

Fade deeper into melancholy 

But nothing makes me stop, I don't want to give up

On my emotions towards you 

 

Ever since then, my heart is dyed blue

I can't let go of you, I'm too afraid of being myself so I 

Act out on my worries, hoping that I'm not someone you'll forget

 

Almost passing out every day 

Trying to love you in a colorful way

Beat me, bash me until you're free love

Then when you're done kiss me so I can say it's true

 

Don't leave me all alone again 

Come around to love and hate me now and then

So that I can give up my all, without paying it mind 

I've decided to leave sanity behind 

 

I don't feel regret, but baby just tell me that

I'm not someone who makes you upset 

I want to keep feeling, but my soul is burning 

I'm becoming a slave to indifference towards my own youth 

 

Next time you come over I'll make sure I've 

Dryed up all my tears so that when you arrive

You won't see a trace of my sadness and lonely anxiety

You can no longer save me 

 

But still I know I'll keep giving 

Until you're satisfied with what you've got 

Until you can finally let go 

And I'll realize it's all been in naught 

As I begin to rot 

 

And at this point I'm 

Beyond being happy, I'm never going to be 

My final wish was 

A kiss of true love from you 

But I know it won't ever come true 

 

So dishonest, playing me like a pianist

I have nothing left 

But won't you stay for just a few?

I know you're gone but I just want one last night for me and you